I don't know what to say....I have ADHD diagnosed by one of the top pschs in the country on that. But I see see some posts on here and I am like "I relate to that" I literally don't want another mental alignment... My problem...I know what I should be doing.... But just don't do that thing. It's so weird. I have had this issue forever Is that recognizable to anyone here?
A lot of people have both adhd and ocd so it’s possible you have both. Is the “I know what I should be doing but just don’t do that thing” procrastination? Or do you feel like something bad will happen if you do the thing you should be doing? If you think something bad will happen and feel anxiety from that it could be ocd. If it’s more of just you’re not interested in doing the task or you keep getting distracted I think that’s just your adhd. I’m no professional though! Just my thoughts
@One_moment_at_a_time For example. Sometimes I need to make a right turn but I feel like if I make a right turn while driving that ppl I know will drop dead or even just that I’d fail an upcoming test. That’s definitely ocd. I know it makes no logical sense but I still feel anxiety and guilt as if it’s a possibility of it actually happening.
Thank you....I was thinking along these lines. Just because I want to deni it, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Appreciate you ♥️
This is crazy because I’ve been feeling the same way! I’ve been being treated for ADHD and OCD and I just like two was just too much to have both logically. But after talking with professionals I think the two make sense in my experience to develop together. It’s almost like if I don’t ruminate I know I won’t follow through so it’s kind of a vicious cycle that is hard to break. It’s like when I can’t do something I just obsess over it instead which is really exhausting. Hang in there and just be sure to get medical advice!
This is very helpful. I understand...and my doc already suggested I a version of OCD and I just basically said no. And then I researched...and just like ADHD...there are different flavors of it. I think what I have is not krippling me.... But is slowing me down in a big way. One little thing of not doing something....adds up over the years
@probablydvs I don't like I can see exactly what I am doing... But can't fix it
This is incredibly insightful...thank you. I don't think it's just procrastinating.... My psych mentioned I might have ocd of some sort, but I said I didn't want to go down that path....I suppose just avoidance. I can myself not doing what is clearly in my best interes and I want to stop doing that
@probablydvs You should ask your psych about getting tested for ocd. I really think you should. I know you don’t want another mental alignment but you can’t help if you have another one or not. So the best thing to do is to get tested (especially since your psych mentioned you might have ocd) because then if you have it you can find out how to best deal with it. There are meds for it. Let this be your first step to doing what’s in your best interest! Not doing what’s in my best interest is an issue I have as well. It can be hard but I believe you can do this❤️
What does a test look like? I remember my test for ADHD was interesting.... They were observing my response to a challenge vs success or failure
Not really sure if this is the right place for me. I've always had a hard time dealing with my urges to do things at certain times or having things just right. There were definitely signs in my childhood that have carried on to my adult life. Some people say it's OCD some say it's not. I like to have things done by certain times of the day and if they aren't I get severe anxiety and can be a little crabby until it gets done. I do try to get out of my "routine" but I'm not always successful. I feel like a prisoner to myself sometimes. If that makes any sense. This app doesn't accept my insurance so I won't be able to do the video calls but it would be awesome to find someone to talk to. And if anyone could tell me if that sounds like OCD to you. I have to have a shower before I eat dinner. I eat dinner at a set time everyday. I will not allow dishes to sit in the sink, as soon as they hit the sink I have to wash them. Everything has to he put back in it's place by the end of the night or I will not sleep. I hate sleeping because it takes me forever to fall asleep with my anxiety but I go to bed at the same time every night and my urges won't allow me to go any earlier unless I literally fall asleep sitting up.
So I've always felt so different like there's something terribly wrong with me. I've spent many years trying to figure out whats wrong. I've done research and I even went into a job centered around it all. My dad had OCD growing up but since my compulsions aren't...obvious? I never thought about OCD until recently. I've been diagnosed BPD and now most recently ADHD. I have always been diagnosed anxiety and depression since I was young. But im really starting to think its been OCD all along. I'm not sure my point in this post I just wanted to get this off my chest.
What makes me feel the craziest, is that I feel like I know enough thanks to my having to research and Google everything..... like, I'm a sophomore in college... I am majoring in Psychology. Because the human mind (like mine) is so interesting. So like, I will talk to myself. Quietly with my thoughts AND even out loud. What trips me out is that I Swear that I have full therapy sessions with myself. I know my OCD is the cause of me having to keep questioning myself and trying to figure out why I'm this way and how to get better and what can I do to end this hell I live in inside my mind. I have made note of being able to provide myself with suggestions and advice and info on things to do that can help counter and deal with my OCD to where i can be more functional. It really pulls me into an intense standstill Because it's like I know the answer and I know what I need to do... but I have to always end it with how i must not care how insane and crazy I am because if I know what I can do to help manage and keep my OCD at ease, then why can't I? It pulls me into this spiral where I then question what I know. Or if I have some sort of split personality. I'm always checking and researching things that I already know, just so I can find reassurance. I will ask Alexa stupid questions I know the answer to, like "whats the definition of _____" when I know what the meaning is, but I want to make sure. I'm always feeling as if I could be wrong in everything I think I know.... I get stuck for hours replaying events and situations or something said or done and try to think of every possible reason why, or possible outcomes. I can not communicate effectively because I sound crazy to myself, how is the other person thinking I'm normal? I get lost and stuck for hours in my own head... "circling" as i call it, or what I recently read as a ping pong game. My best friend committed suicide in 2019, by "hanging" to where I became obsessed with suicide, learning all about hanging to where I know things like short-drop and either you suffer or just pass out. Not just that but then I want to know how she was in her last moments. (I would hope she just passed out... I hate knowing she was in any pain). This lead me to become obsessed with the spirit world and started doing spirit box sessions again because I want to talk to her. (Which has me confused between I know I might hear some things because I want to... but also feel that because of that, I need clear responses). I am just in constant battle with my own self. I'm always fighting my own self. I'm my own worst enemy... but my own friend and therapist and teacher and etc. This is really really difficult. And I hope I am not alone in this. I don't even know exactly what subtypes and themes i deal with because there's many, and because everything has to be exactly what it's supposed to be, that if one "trait" doesn't fall under that category, that there must be something I am missing. This is exhausting 😞
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