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Only if
If I didn’t have ocd my life would be so beautiful is sad 😞
If I didn’t have ocd my life would be so beautiful is sad 😞
You will get through this and have a beautiful life don’t worry!
@Iloverowdy12 Hopefully is so guilty that I been wasting it but one thing is I didn’t pick ocd sadly
@Monii Nope none of is did it just the hand we were dealt with in this life I promise things will get better even if they don’t seem like that now
@Iloverowdy12 Hopefully the last 2 years I been stuck badly I need to get out of this ocd cycle
I always wonder if that one thought that started it all didn’t happen how alot of things would have been different it’s sad but we can do it
@hunnvenus Very sad and depressing why did we got picked to have this terrible disorder I meant people have worse things but still
Well I can tell you I've suffered with OCD since the age of 7.....I still remember my first intrusive thoughts like it was yesterday.....it turned my life on its head....not a day since has been OCD free, I was well past believing anything could really help .....I'm 58 and have been treated for the last year by an NOCD therapist, and my life is finally changing....for the first time I am starting to feel like I always should have, so I would say there is real hope for anyone with this illness.
@Garrett Maguire Me too since 7 I remember Exactly everything I remember getting thoughts that I was about to have a heart attack and going to my mom crying to help me and she used to said what’s wrong with you ? that’s no gonna happen but I still feel anxious nothing took that anxiety away since then I m 30 now and still suffer daily is a no ending bottle I always wish there’s was a magic fix for this is no fair we have to survive everyday and no live I m so happy for you that the therapist is helping you definitely needed it if you don’t mind asking what’s helping you therapy alone or with medication?
@Monii Therapy, I never found medication to really help me very much.
@Garrett Maguire That’s fantastic congratulations
This feels so real right now. Objectively I know I have so many great things in my life but I’m having the hardest time feeling gratitude or enjoyment for those things and it breaks my heart
@llm31 Yes is so hard being positive having gratitude while going through ocd is hard to enjoy life in general
I point I would make, is that I always felt that the problem, was the illness itself, that I had no control over it......but the truth is,... that it is our actions,....that keep the illness going, it only stays strong because we choose to continue with compulsions....which is within our control to stop.....not easy for sure, but we do have the power to take away OCDs control over our lives. It's that realisation and our willingness to act on it and nothing else I believe, that can make us better.
@Garrett Maguire Yes that is so true the compulsion are what ocd feed of i have so many compulsion that I didn’t even realize I had and is hard to cut them I m trying to cut them little by little because all at once cause bad anxiety and panic attack is so hard but it feel so much better when I don’t do a compulsion is all about staying strong how you said
The things that used to make me happy? The things that used to make me sad? I don't know how to connect with those anymore. I used to be happy just looking at the sunset and nature, I loved being present in the moment but now being present in the moment is scary because now I'm faced with my thoughts and new potential ones so I'd rather distract myself. I love kballads and I used to listen to them and just cry and be happy because they sound so beautiful but now I can't embrace these things that feel like beauty because I feel like the exact opposite. The only things I can enjoy are K-drama's! But I can't watch things with kids in it. So yah that's tricky! And the things that make me sad?! Well I used to be sad and terrified about loosing my loved ones but now it's a different kind of sad. I used to be sad because of miss them and all that but now I'm scared of facing now messed up my emotions have become. I'm scared of loosing someone I love and then not being able to feel sad because I'm just numb, or even worse...if it becomes something I'm okay with or what if OCD convinces me that I'm happy about it because honestly it would be weird moving around the world with such emotions. So not only has OCD made it hard for me to enjoy the good things but also hard for me to feel sad about the sad things or just to put it short...to experience emotions normally.
i hate ocd so deeply. just a few months ago the idea of moving in ( in the future ) with the love of my life was comforting and it kept me going. the idea of sharing our lives was everything i needed. now because of ocd it feels like a nightmare, im not excited anymore. ocd makes me doubt that im a bad lover, that i wanted to deeply hurt my lover in the past and that i forgot about it. our relationship was the most comforting thing in my life, genuinely a safe place where i could rest, i felt normal around my lover i could let go of the feeling that I'm a monster. now it's terrible, it's all ruined, i feel like we shouldn't be together, it's a genuine nightmare, and it's not because of them, i love them so much they are the most beautiful person i ever met. it's just that not knowing if i wanted to hurt them or not makes me feel like i shouldnt be around them, so insisting on being in their life makes me feel horrified. my therapist says i shouldn't break up with them because this is all ocd. my lover wants to be with me, they always tell me about how they can't wait to live together, i think they r happy and feel loved in this relationship but it doesn't change how i feel. i Just wish i could go back in time idk what to do anymore. this is what i cherished most in my life and i don't have it anymore and i don't know if ill ever get it back
I’m a 20 yr old female, I think I’ve always had ocd but the symptoms didn’t become apparent to me until I was about 17. I feel like that’s where life went downhill for me. OCD attacks everything that is important to me, my sexuality, my morals, even my health. Sometimes I wish I could be a kid again and not have this vicious disease in my head constantly bullying me. But I know I will overcome it one day.
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