I have been working on my ocd and I do not feel afraid of my ocd right now but I do feel very depressed and unmotivated is this a normal part of healing from ocd?
Wow! I’ve been thinking the same thing all week. Blows my mind how many people in this community are communicating about feeling the same things I’m feeling. Thank you for sharing this. Hopefully we are on the road to recovery and that this is part of it. All my best to you ☀️
@Anonymous I hope so ,it just feels weird to have a huge change in my mental state in the last the couple day vs what I was feeling the last 4 months.
Thats how ive felt this week. Just kinda numb, depressed, and irritable. I dont feel panic or fear or repulsion from the intrusive thoughts, i just disagree with them. But then it acts like the thoughts are true when that happens. Just waiting for it to be over
@Logan_B Its weird that thoughts are no longer scaring me. Sorry you feel how I feel . It kinda breaks my heart to know others are hurting from ocd like I am. Ocd is painful and just terrible.
@Brooke cookie Its natural to eventually be desensitized to them. That desensitization doesnt last forever. But its always a stressful time to deal with when ocd switches things up on you, especially when youre depressed.
@Logan_B I am hoping the fact I am becoming desensitized to my ocd is a sign of recovery. I have been working on my ocd. Hopefully this is a sign that we are starting to make progress on our OCD.
I am experiencing this too. The biggest thing to realize is recovery is not a straight path. It is a rollercoaster with ups and downs and loops. It can be difficult to stay motivated to get better, it can feel hopeless at times. But you’ll get better someday, I promise.
I’m kinda feeling this way myself right now. I feel like I’m having the thoughts but no real fear to try and avoid them or even justify why I shouldn’t be having them. It’s making feel anxious all together and uncomfortable. Maybe we’re all experiencing some kind of back door spike?
To be honest I haven’t had a depressed/unmotivated day since I got into my therapy. It took a few weeks but I have to say between my therapy and Prozac it has helped me tremendously. I’m so sorry you are going feeling this way right now. We are will have our days and the best way to handle it I feel is self care. Maybe go for a walk or read a good book or even a good movie 🙂
I'm reaching out in hopes of finding others who might relate to my experiences or offer insights. I'm dealing with a complex interplay of OCD, depression, and existential anxiety, and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. Here's what I'm experiencing: I have OCD with various manifestations, along with episodes of depression. I find myself in a cyclical pattern where, after a few weeks, I start to remind myself about my depressive tendencies. This reminder seems to trigger a cycle that actually makes me feel more depressed or at least more aware of depressive symptoms. When this happens, I often experience feelings of nihilism and existential dread. I try to think about my family - my two young boys and my wife - to find motivation or a sense of purpose, but this strategy often backfires, making me feel even more anxious and depressed. I constantly check my feelings, wondering if they're depressive or anxious. At the same time, I fear that my feelings of anxiety and panic might spiral out of control. I think about my emotions and thoughts on a meta-level, which means I'm not just experiencing feelings, but I'm also constantly analyzing the fact that I'm experiencing them. There's an existential component to my struggles, a fear of depression and anxiety itself, and a sense that this might be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Perhaps most frustratingly, I often have feelings, thoughts, or sensory experiences that I can't explain or put into words. I feel like I've never heard of these before, which leaves me feeling deeply misunderstood. Does anyone else experience something similar? How do you cope with this complex web of symptoms and experiences? I'm particularly interested in hearing from those who've found ways to break the cycle of meta-cognition and self-fulfilling anxiety. Any insights, shared experiences, or strategies would be deeply appreciated. Thank you for your time and understanding.
hi. so one big factor of my OCD is rumination. i met a guy who i have a crush on the idea of (idea bc there are red flags). my biggest fear is not finding true love, my ex told me no one else would deal with what i have (my ocd, specifically reassurance seeking and getting overstimulated after intimacy). a few weeks ago, my friends and family all gathered and tried to give me advice that sounded like “you’re shy and you’ll never find someone.” after that, i’ve felt off. i’ve been using an unhealthy coping skill, daydreaming, and i’ve just felt unbalanced. my ocd makes everything feel different sometimes, i can’t explain it. life, myself, almost like being in a dissociated state. has anyone else experienced that? i don’t know how to remain balanced during my off times and i know pms exasperates it all. i take ashwaghanda and omega 3s in a multi vitamin daily. i take them all together in the evening but i’ve missed three days recently and also messed with my rocky sleep schedule because of fun times with friends. i hope these supplements work, because i don’t know if i’d be brave enough for medication. i had a bad reaction on prozac and often am forgetful. i just have been battling my OCD consciously for almost ten years now and unconsciously for longer. i am so tired, as my mental health extends beyond my OCD. i’m in talk therapy with some cbt aspects but i only see her twice a month. i’ve broken down so many times and promised myself id get on track or that certain things would work, but it’s like i am stuck in a circle that gets smaller when i’m able to help myself. i just want to be normal. i want to be able to mess up my sleep schedule to enjoy good times and not suffer horrible consequences or fear that i will be entirely thrown off balance. i don’t want to worry or doubt or feel so dissociative that i squint my eyes for a moment and wonder why i feel so unreal. i will never understand why god has allowed me to go through this. i cannot let it be for nothing but i don’t know how much more to bend and contort my body and brain to get somewhere stable but how lovely it would be if i could. i don’t have much of a schedule right now, i get apathetic and give in with things from time to time. one thing can trigger me and i am back to square one wether in a week or month. any advice, any and all is so helpful. your stories, your thoughts. maybe feeling less alone and knowing what has helped you is exactly what i need right now. thank you 💗
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
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