i feel like this will never pass (it never will)

i remember feeling more hopeless in the past, having lower moments, mentally, you know, in 2022 i completely lost it. and i remember being 14 in 2020 and for the first time really considering ending my life. but still every day i wake up and go to sleep in the ocd prison, i am so tired, no one understands the patterns are the same, have been the same for years and yet i don’t know how to cope. it’s so exhausting.

Username: NotThatHardcoreNotThatHardcore

Date posted: 29w ago

Hey there. It sounds like you've been in a rough place for a while. And yeah, OCD can be exhausting, for sure. Sorry about that. There are a lot of effective treatments out there. Have you tried ERP yet? Have you tried meds? If you've tried those, I can list a whole bunch of other things you could try, but I don't want to overwhelm you. If you haven't tried those, I might be able to point you to places you could go to get started. It doesn't have to be this way forever. There are a lot of reasons for hope, even if you can't see them right now. People recover from this and go on to live good lives. I bet you can too.

Username: GooliesGoolies

Date posted: 28w ago

Keep fighting on. ERP can help a lot. There is also TMS (trans cranial magnetic stimulation) that has shown some improvement with OCD. Check it out online or speak with your Dr. Keep posting. It helps to share with people who understand. You are not alone

Username: ocdJZwarriorocdJZwarrior

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 28w ago

Im so sorry to hear that you are suffering. OCD is truly devastating! Remember tough times create tough people. You may not see this right now but in time, you will have peace in your life soon. Keep fighting each day and know that it does get better. I promise!

Username: livingnightmarehell33livingnightm...

Date posted: 28w ago

Im in the same boat. All the hope from people are sweet and kind but I'm numb to it. I feel exactly like this....

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Been a rough one

It feels like the ocd has gotten to a point where it's just there in the background at all times. Even if im not having some POCD related thought it's like it's just taken away a part of me I feel i can't get back. I still go through the motions and try to joke around and be silly like i would normally. But its just hard to always feel this anxiety and uncertainty in the background. Sure, i can handle it. But what is that worth when you're just handling a slow persistent torture. Everywhere i go it's like i can't connect, seeing others happy and seemingly carefree makes me feel like an alien. Every morning for 8 months the OCD pops in within the first minute of the day. Doesn't have to even be a thought around POCD, though it usually is. Its just the general thought that i have this thing that i can't seem to get rid of and its making me a lesser version of myself. And on top of it all, i can't truly know if its OCD. Since its more "Pure-O" it feels hard to relate to others and their experiences with OCD. Just such a damn mess. This has happened before with other themes but this POCD thing feels like a demon on steroids.

Username: toomuch

Date posted: 1y ago

Time and OCD

Do you ever get depressed over how long you’ve been dealing with OCD? I’ve been dealing with it for over two years now. I mourn what my life could have been like if that one thought hadn’t popped into my mind. Makes you feel like life is going to be like this forever. In those moments, what makes you have hope or a feeling that things are gonna get better?

Username: ejt

Date posted: 48w ago

Lost Cause

This is my first time in ocd specific therapy, even though I’ve been struggling with it since I was a kid and I just feel like there’s no hope and I won’t be able to tolerate the distress of ERP. My OCD is so wide ranging and convoluted I can’t imagine being able to untangle it and actually make progress. It’s making me miserable and has me trapped in my thoughts but I don’t even know how to verbalize some parts of what I’m experiencing. I’m just checking, reviewing and over analyzing everything in my life constantly. My brain feels like it’s on fire and it takes me days to recover from OCD induced breakdowns. I don’t know if I have it in me to work through this :(

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