- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Words of encouragement (not reassurance)
I've battled OCD since I was a little kid. Until a couple of years ago, I sort of learnt to live with it. The last 2 years, intrusive thoughts have ruined my life. Let's just say, everything I dont want to think about, pops into my mind. This leads to immense guilt, shame and fear I will feel like this forever. Ive done ERP, seen roughly 8 psychologists, did a 3 weeks stay as an impatient OCD program and am taking Fluoxetine daily. I know all there is to know about OCD therapy, minimising compulsions, ACT, mindfulness etc. Why cant I seem to get on top of this? I know it takes time and practice and eventually I will change the way my brain is wired. It's days like today I feel that I will never be able to forgive myself for the content of the thoughts that have resided in my mind. Sometimes I wish I could use the memory wiping device used in Men in Black, so I can forget everything Ive ever thought. I will keep fighting and hopefully one day I can use what I have learnt to help others OCD sufferers. You are all so frickin brave for getting out of bed every day knowing what awaits you. I wish nothing but happiness, peace and a clear mind to you all xxx