My last post got flagged sorry if I offended or triggered anybody I'm just feeling really horrible. Sorry again

@LindaD10 I’m so sorry that you’re feeling this way , maybe I can help you out a bit :) wanna talk about it ?

Yes plz. My hocd is getting to the point where the symptoms dont feel like ocd but that im just in outright denial at this point. I feel sick to my stomach saying im bi but I feel like I need to confess and come out due to things in my past, etc. Im sad and and hopeless because it feels real and like this is what I want and thats super scary. I'm sad at the fact that that means I will never be able to go to a pool or beach without noticing and having to like a girl in a bikini. It seems like every girl I see the attraction is intense but doesnt seem like the genuine attraction I feel with guys. But it still feels like something and I just can't let it go. I wish I didnt care if I was bi or not. I wish it didnt matter and this would be over. But I do care which leads me to believe that it is because of my denial.

Nooo not at all!! Just saying to accept it as a possibility so you get to the point where it isn’t an intrusive thought anymore :)

I worded it strangely sorry about that haha it was super late where I am ??

No worries! ?

May I ask why it got flagged ?

I'm sure it had to with it being triggering but I put a trigger warning and me saying I didn't want to live anymore. People have said that multiple times though. I feel hopeless with my illness and today I hit what I feel like is rock bottom.

@LindaD10 when I was dealing with my OCD themes , I felt EXACTLY how you feel right this moment. I thought I was in denial about everything , that I’ve always been someone else , and that I ignored obvious signs. But now that I’m outside of that box full of those specific fears , I know that’s not the case. What you really have to do is try your hardest to embrace your fear. Tell yourself constantly , maybe I’m bi , so what ?? I could still date guys and wouldn’t have to choose girls. Maybe I’m attracted to her , so what ?? Why is this a bad thing ? Why am I letting something I can’t control hold me down ?? I don’t mean to give you reassurance when I say this , but when people are genuinely attracted to women , they don’t constantly ask themselves whether it’s true or not and don’t feel anxious or scared over it. It’s a part of who they are and they go for it like someone goes to sleep at night without thinking about it. You definitely don’t have to “ confess “ anything :) a confession is a statement where you reveal something that you are guilty of or should feel bad of , this isn’t the case for your situation. You did nothing wrong at all. You can eventually not care that you’re bi , but accepting that it may take some time is smart. That way you don’t rush recovery and let it happen naturally , which is the most effective way honestly. Things like talking to other people who are bi and reading about the fun things they do and community they are a part of can help normalize it all. Hope this helped :)

I appreciate you taking the time to comment thank you for the tips :)

Also when you say eventually not care when you're bi are you saying that I am? Or could be?