I’ve been struggling recently what if the “ what if these aren’t intrusive thoughts from ocd” because my mental health has been terrible , I’m at at ting to have suicidal thoughts and siv never been a depressed person I’m very scared of death actaully:( it’s scaring me that I’m having these thoughts and images 😕
I am with you!!! I am so concerned that I am starting to have suicidal thoughts because of how bad my ocd has gotten. I have Suicidal OCD and I want to live SO BADLY. i love my life ( not like this tho 😍) but my brain keeps telling me it would be easier to give up. That sounds so much like a real thought but I don’t want to do it if that makes sense. Like it feels so opposite of me!!!
The “what ifs” are the most common ways ocd gets in your head and distorts your reality
“what if” is a massive thing OCD makes you think. over and over. what if. what if. i’ve felt the same exact way “what if these thoughts aren’t ocd? what if there real?”. a good way to deal with this is by sitting with the uncomfortableness of not knowing. “what if it isn’t ocd” maybe it isn’t. “what if it is ocd” maybe it is ocd. by doing this your mind sits with the exposure of the possibility it is or isn’t ocd. and is a way to recover from feeling so anxious from this.
After months of no harm ocd, something happened that triggered my anxiety and everything came back, i have unwanted thoughts about suicide. And im googling again about whats the difference between s real suicidal feeling and suicidal ocd... bc these thoughts arent make me just anxious... i start to feel depressed about them... i fight with them too much. Still cant decide and want to know what is this, real or just ocd suicide thoughts...
Hey everyone. I have been struggling with this theme this week. I had a panic attack at the beginning of the week and I got hit with a bunch of suicide intrusive thoughts. That is the last thing on earth I want to do and it hurts me because my mind makes me believe I want to. I get in a really sad dark alone place and sometimes I think about it but also I feel like it is intrusive because I have told myself no matter how bad it gets, no matter how shitty it feels I will not do anything to take my own life. It brings me so much sadness and guilt when I think about those kinds of things. It’s been hard because I have been trying to mindfully redirect and stay in the present moment but the thoughts come back and it makes it so hard to move on or when I’m in a happy moment that feels good my intrusive thoughts just come flooding back. I have tried to accept that those thoughts are there and I need to do things towards my goals and values but it’s been so difficult to accept this feeling and notice those thoughts when they are so against everything I love and it’s so hard when it’s one of my biggest fears. I cry and cry because I’m just so scared of those thoughts and it makes me think I actually want to do it. Anyway has anyone else experienced this? I feel so guilty and sometimes get thoughts that this feeling will never go away even thought I know for a fact I can get past it. Any advice? Or does anyone relate?
2 months ago I fell into existential OCD that left me questioning the meaning of life and if anything was or wasn't real. Became depressed from the thought and eventually through acceptance if never knowing the unknown, I was back to having better days. Well, one day I found myself ruminating about the existential OCD again and had the random thought "Do you think you can keep living like this"? The thought Terrified me. I had been through alot of pain and loss and things but through it all I had never questioned if I could continue living. Since then I've been confused and anxious and tired. I don't know if it's suicidal ideation or suicidal themed OCD. I avoid songs with the word suicide, I stopped watching horror movies and stopped enjoying other things like Ghost Pokémon because they made me think of death and kind of triggered anxiety in me. Sometimes the thoughts feel so real that I'm not sure if it's something I actually want to do or if it's OCD. I've turned to trying to find spirituality and religion to tell myself if I kill myself their may be consequences in an afterlife. Im constantly googling things like "How to make suicidal thoughts go away" and reassuring myself that I wouldn't do it. It still feels real sometimes and it's horrifying. Is there a difference between being genuinely suicidal and suicidal ocd themed?
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