Guilt

Omg this was me in February! I literally could not have a thought without telling someone about it. Even the most embarrassing and disturbing thoughts I pushed myself to say. But that’s a huge compulsion and one you have to work to tell yourself “Look, nothing will happen if I do or don’t say these things. Some things are okay to just keep to yourself”. I know it feels like the worst guilt and anxiety to keep it in but once you get past that initial intense feeling it kind of really does go away. And the more you practice not blurting things out to family or friends or whoever, the less strong the urge to do so will be.

everytime you feel you need to tell someone, write it down and track it. You could kind of use this as a way of "telling it to the paper"- but be careful that writing doesn't become compulsive.

Thank you so much both of you! It honestly gets to me so much n makes me miserable. It ruins my relationship when I end up blurting these things out bc someone who doesn’t have it can struggle to understand them n be supportive. It’s so hard :(