Hi, I currently really struggle with intrusive thoughts/images. How do I get past this horrible guilt feeling and urge to tell everyone? I just want to be happy but I feel like I’m drowning in guilt.
Omg this was me in February! I literally could not have a thought without telling someone about it. Even the most embarrassing and disturbing thoughts I pushed myself to say. But that’s a huge compulsion and one you have to work to tell yourself “Look, nothing will happen if I do or don’t say these things. Some things are okay to just keep to yourself”. I know it feels like the worst guilt and anxiety to keep it in but once you get past that initial intense feeling it kind of really does go away. And the more you practice not blurting things out to family or friends or whoever, the less strong the urge to do so will be.
everytime you feel you need to tell someone, write it down and track it. You could kind of use this as a way of "telling it to the paper"- but be careful that writing doesn't become compulsive.
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@chloexo You’re not alone. I struggle with the same thing and it makes me feel crazy constantly — of why do I have to verbalize every single thought and doubt I have, for someone else to essentially give me permission to think that. Our thoughts are not in our control, and sometimes we just need to remember that. We all have weird thoughts, it is up to us to not add weight to them.
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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