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@meowmeow I’m glad to hear that! I feel the same way. I just wish there were more people on here so at least each post gets a reply. I think this app isn’t as popular as other platforms (ofc) & hope it will be in the future. I just worry some people will come to troll and install fear into people with OCD. I have seen taboo topics on here that people without OCD will probably see differently and try to take that person down. but it is so relieving to find an app where people share their experiences. I’m not diagnosed, but the stories people share, I can relate with. of course, not everything but I was surprised to see I’m not the only one thinking & worrying much!

@veinsoul im not diagnosed either but looking back on my childhood, theres no way i don’t have it yk, it also gives me a sense of peace telling myself that its just my ocd and not me so i don’t go crazy lol, but with the trolling they just don’t get the suffering we go through but a lot of people think the stuff we do they just can put it off more easy like when i opened up to my friend and found out they have similar thought but can just put it off more easy i was surprised i thought i was the most horrendous terrible person alive but its just normal, just is we sit and dread on stuff that’s not true and we have to learn that’s it’s not us theyre just “silly”thoughts to make us go crazy. i’m typing this trying to help but knowing i struggle a lot, i just recently opened up to my bf about all my thoughts thinking he would judge but he didn’t and it makes me feel better sorry for ranting its just nice to talk to people who understand i wish i had more buds to chat with about it

@meowmeow it’s okay! no need to apologize. thank u for sharing. I also would like to have ppl my age who are going through stuff as well so I don’t feel insane haha

@meowmeow thanks lol

@kaylaxo I am so sorry to hear that. I wish you the best in healing. I feel like I am not good with words & am scared of not making people feel better, so I will try my best to ease up some pain of yours, even for a few seconds if it helps. I hope this doesn’t sound like I’m making it about me. I want to share my experiences to show that I have some similarity with you. I can say that I guess I have been feeling depressed (don’t have a diagnosis on depression) & just can’t seem to do things. I don’t have the desire to do things I usually like, can’t bring myself to stay up with hygiene, can’t & don’t want to eat when my body needs to, feel so insecure, doubt my academic skills & much more. I’ve been battling this for a couple years now. I feel empty. I feel like I’m living while lifting a heavy load on my shoulders. I’m just dragging the bag but still going. I’m not sure how I keep going even when I feel out of place. I feel like you’re the same as well. It’s hard but we’re still here, alive. breathing, although it hurts. we so desperately want to hold onto something so we don’t fall. it sucks. it really does suck. but I believe you can get through this. it’s going to suck so much. it will feel unfair. unfair that we have to suffer, but you will make it. let yourself feel. accept your feelings & give yourself the place to let go. whether it’s writing on paper, doing a hobby, eating, crying, etc. release it & let it flow. I am not religious, so I cannot comfort the way religious people would and I’m sorry. but I am seeing your struggle. I hear you. you may not tell anyone else in the world about how you are currently feeling. but I am here right now, acknowledging you and your cries. I am just one person out of a billion people in the world, but I see you. I wish you the best & hope my comment has helped a bit. I am deeply sorry if I could not help in any way. just know that I tried.

@veinsoul Thank you so much. That was really kind of you ☺️. And I hope you will try to push yourself to accomplish small things. I understand how it can be hard to keep up with hygiene and maybe even the cleanliness of your surroundings. Sometimes when I have a few days off work I will struggle with even small things like that. But when I push myself to do small tasks it reminds me that it actually helps my mood a bit more! And I hope you are not hard on yourself either. It seems all of us on this app are struggling one way or another and it’s nice to have each other to remind us that we are not completely alone and that we need to be more gentle with ourselves 😁

@meowmeow yeah, no problem! if you’d like, you can just post what u feel like & hopefully get some replies. I don’t know if this app has direct messaging so maybe just replies will work lol

@meowmeow and it doesn’t sound weird at all. I feel the same way haha

@veinsoul hey i was wondering if you had any socials sorry if this sounds weird but you don’t have to give it if you don’t want to!!! or if your under the age then i don’t want it

@meowmeow hello. don’t worry, it’s fine. I have pretty much deleted most social media but have the option for discord or pinterest. (ik pinterest seems odd but they have direct messaging lol & I have it to just add pictures to my folders) I am not a minor, I’m 21. if you have either one of those, I can do that. I do have an instagram but it’s for those I have known for a while.

@veinsoul i have insta and pinterest my insta is lexiesullivanm and my pinterest is the same i believe

@meowmeow pinterest seems best. mine is @saintsfiasco

@meowmeow think I found ya so I will send a waving emoji