Constantly struggling with the thought of "Am I a pedophile?" I have never harmed a child but have had horrible thoughts. Where's the line? If I have to ask does that mean I am one? Feeling suicidal and in need of support.
I can promise you you're not a pedophile and the fact you're feeling suicidal because of the thought should assure you that you are not. Please don't give up try to let the thoughts pass like clouds and simply just thank your brain for protecting you the less you react to the thoughts I promise they'll come up less and less. You got this š¤
Itās my understanding that a pedophile is someone who enjoys these type of thoughts! So the fact that you are horrified by these thoughts and find them stressful proves your not! Iāve struggled with this as well and can be hard to treat! But there just thoughts and itās the fear that keeps them alive. I have a name for my ocd and thatās seemore, what I get an intrusive thought I say ok seemore there you are again trying to mess with me again! Try and make light of these thoughts and take the power away from themā¦
I fear I may have POCD, I am terrified of being a pedophile. my symptoms were initially strong surges of anxiety. I made the mistake of looking up what pedophilia is about and now I fear I am one. I have a bad masturbation problem and that didnt help, as now I feel a weird feeling down below and its distressing me. I'm only 20, this never happened to me before and now I only feel confusion and doubt, Ive cried like never before cause of this.
I have been suffering this for about 3 weeks now and its absolutely unbearable, I want to state more explicit details about this but I dont want to distress others, all I can say is I am experiencing this weird feeling in my groin and an urge to masturbate and its horrifying me. I already am diagnosed with anxiety but it pales in comparison with what is happening with me. I had no interest in children at all before this but now I am experiencing doubt and uncertainty. I have already cried 5 times today, this is the most awful thing I have ever experienced. I am only 20 years old and its both physically, and emotionally destroying me
so Iāve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that Iāve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the āmaybeāorāi donāt knowā isnāt working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that Iām afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there itāll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is whatās keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. Itās also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when Iām cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. itās almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know itās wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i canāt control these urges even though iāve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. Iāve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friendās boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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