Constantly struggling with the thought of "Am I a pedophile?" I have never harmed a child but have had horrible thoughts. Where's the line? If I have to ask does that mean I am one? Feeling suicidal and in need of support.
I can promise you you're not a pedophile and the fact you're feeling suicidal because of the thought should assure you that you are not. Please don't give up try to let the thoughts pass like clouds and simply just thank your brain for protecting you the less you react to the thoughts I promise they'll come up less and less. You got this š¤
Itās my understanding that a pedophile is someone who enjoys these type of thoughts! So the fact that you are horrified by these thoughts and find them stressful proves your not! Iāve struggled with this as well and can be hard to treat! But there just thoughts and itās the fear that keeps them alive. I have a name for my ocd and thatās seemore, what I get an intrusive thought I say ok seemore there you are again trying to mess with me again! Try and make light of these thoughts and take the power away from themā¦
(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically Iām really worried Iāll become a pedo/I already am and I donāt know it yet. Iām also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I donāt want to and Iād never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and itās really scaring me. I feel so alone and Iām so scared Iām a bad person on the inside and this isnāt ocd and Iām gonna unleash hell on this earth Iām so scared. Iāll get a thought like if Iām walking past someone random it will be like āWhat if you sa them?ā And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like Iām always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I donāt know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
I'm struggling with pocd it feels very real and I'm at a point where I feel I need to go to confess to the police stuff I know I haven't done but have false memories of doing and I feel like nobody thinks like this and very alone.
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