Being trans is such a normal thing these days that I feel like I'm just in denial. There's no good reason not to transition other than that I "think" I like being a guy more than I would a girl. I feel like there are so many signs throughout my life, and that I'm just using a disorder as an excuse
It depends a lot on whether or not these thoughts of you being trans distress you or not
They do distress me, I think. I don't think I would like being a girl in my day to day, and I have a lot of things I want to do as a man
The truth of the matter is, you shouldn't try to find an answer. OCD is preying on an insecurity, so the best solution is to starve it. Whenever you start doubting your gender identity tell yourself "maybe I am transgender, or maybe I'm not. I don't need an answer right now " then go about your day. I'm going through the same exact thing you are right now and it sucks, but we have to sit with the uncertainty. I believe in you, stranger.
But if it isn't OCD, aren't I just denying things if I do that? If I really am trans then I should think it through, no?
@Anonymous You're not denying anything. You should say that you MAY or MAY NOT be transgender and leave it at that. The possibility exists that you could be. Or you might be cis. The point is your OCD is feeding on an insecurity you have about your gender identity and the way to beat it is to not let OCD have the satisfaction of making you ruminate over the idea. You have to sit in the discomfort of uncertainty and not try to seek an answer. Over time it should lessen it's hold on you. Once it stops being an obsession bringing you discomfort then you should be free to explore your gender identity. I hope that is helpful.
as someone who is Transmasc Nonbinary I 100% understand , this sounds more like gender dysphoria especially since it’s something that you want if that’s makes sense ? i would definitely talk it over with your therapist and see what the symptoms of Transgender Themed OCD versus gender dysphoria , medication transition is a big step and there is also micro dosing , but you also don’t HAVE to medically transition in order to be seen or perceived as there person you want to be . i think as well with this day and age expressing yourself is more open and freeing , you can have labels you can have no labels ! it’s all up to you and what you’re therapist thinks is best .
That's the thing: I don't really think I want it. I'm AMAB and I like my body, the social roles, all of it. Sometimes I get insecure and I don't really love my face, but that's kind of all? I don't really think I would like womanhood. But I cannot let go of the question! When I was a kid I thought I would have to be a girl to express my emotions, but now I get to be a fully emotional man and I really like it
You could also be gender fluid and have female and male together, speaking as a trans person I did know from a young age I just didn't have the words for it but I always felt uncomfortable in women's clothing and loved dressing as a guy, playing house with friends inalways wanted to be the male role. I was a tomboy growing up forsure and was a lesbian it wasn't till college where I found out what transgender was and started transitioning. But gender fluid is a thing too. If you don't have string feelings towards only identifying as male inside and out. But saying that I still struggle with knowing if I want bottom surgery mostly bc of the surgeries that have to be done to do that scare me lol
I hear you. I tried out nonbinary a few years ago, but I couldn't even make it an afternoon. I felt so wrong and uncomfortable, like it wasn't me. I feel like the more exploration I do, the more confused and scared I get. I honestly just want to grow into an old man, but I keep having these thoughts. I'm worried they *must* mean something.
@Anonymous That's fair, what do you think would happen if you started taking testosterone you can start out microdosing and get the facial hair and all that andnsee how that feels if it scares you even more you can talk to your Dr and stop taking it. But I had to get a therapist note in Illinois constant taking testosterone so maybe you can actually talk to a therapist and process all of those emotions and feelings.
@LILBOIIBRENT Oh for clarity I'm AMAB, so I'm already on testosterone lol. I really like the facial hair and everything else, really!
I have the same thing man, but with SO OCD, like I'm finding signs all through my life, that I didn't even knew were there
When I was younger I always felt different but it was because I’ve never been a “tough guy.” This transgender OCD is killing me. There were only a couple girly things I liked back then. But, I’ve never been upset with my body or anything like that. I’ve always liked the way I looked, and my physical qualities too. I’m scared with the thought saying “maybe I’m just realizing this and I’m meant to be a female.”
I'm really really scared that I might be transgender I don't know if it's ocd or denial can anyone please help
i keep thinking that I’m using tocd as an excuse to avoid the truth that I might be a boy. I never thought that I felt this way at least not when I was younger and I thought I was normal and like any other girl. But now I keep remembering so much stuff from my childhood and it feels true and it was just something I didn’t know about until I guess I’ve gained the knowledge to understand how I felt? I’m not really sure I’m always confused and I feel like my head is going to explode, but I don’t feel like a girl anymore and I don’t feel connected to my body in the way I once was. Everything that I held as a value seems to be turning into something so morally against my character or something. I used to constantly feel like though that I was still finding myself or something as in like what I wanted to do career wise and how I wanted to dress like my aesthetic but I never felt like I was in the wrong body or that I wanted to be a boy. I of course had moments where the typical girl thing would be that boys lives are so much easier but I never wanted to be a boy or was envious of their gender. I love or I guess loved being a girl and didn’t want to change that. I’m not sexually attracted to women I really don’t want to be with a woman and I don’t want to be that masculine figure in a relationship or in any other area and life but I can’t help but think that this is my true self but I just don’t want to be a boy I loved being a girl and wearing makeup and dressing up and doing girl things but now all of a sudden it’s like I want to do every manly thing in existence idk but I know those things I don’t enjoy. I don’t know I’m so confused and can’t help but feel like I’m using ocd as an excuse and lying to myself and then when I remind myself it is ocd it just feels wrong idk maybe this is who I am and to be honest I just want to cry but even then I can’t tell if that’s real or not and that I’m crying because I still want to be a girl or just crying to cry idk
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