are these compulsions?

I'm starting to question my OCD diagnosis. I don't know if I actually do any compulsions. Yeah I google sometimes especially with health ocd. But whenever I get a thorough I just can't stop thinking about it. I'm now afraid of schizophrenia. And the only thing I do is think if I have it and sometimes I check to see if some things I see or hear is true. But I mostly just sit and can't stop thinking about it. And I'm just scared that at any moment I could start hallucinating. Are any of these actions actually compulsions?

Zoroarcanine

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

I have had two recent successes that I feel tie into your post. One I had was learning to stop trying to figure out if this thing was a compulsion or not. After all, if it’s not a compulsion it’s okay to do, but if it is I have to stop it, or else. We are human and are not perfect. We will never be able to stop doing every compulsion, but if I think it could be a compulsion, what’s the harm in trying to stop doing that thing, even if it isn’t? As for the other thing, it was (trigger warning so please read this through) learning to accept I don’t have OCD. My mind does know better than a licensed therapist after all. I haven’t always acted out a compulsion for every trigger I have experienced throughout my life, and even when I did, was what I did really a compulsion. After all every person has intrusive thoughts, how am I any different than them. I’m sure they would google too, what separates how long they google versus how long I google…. OCD is the doubting disorder and can, quite literally, do anything and make you doubt anything. Learning to just agree with the doubts is scary, but it has helped me be able to move on with myself. Even now if I was asked the question, do I have OCD, my brain is shouting no, but I’ll still answer yes to someone, because that thought is just a thought. Agreeing with the doubts though can be very scary if you’re in a deeper hole though, so I recommended, working with a therapist if possible, and starting with exposures to fears and thoughts that are less distressful and working your way up from there

Pija

Date posted: 1y

@Zoroarcanine Thank you for your response. I know that OCD makes me doubt everything even the fact that I have OCD. I've been working with a therapist for a bit now. And when he asked me what compulsion I do I didn't know what to say because most of them are not physical. So that made me question if I even have OCD. But you're right I just need to accept this doubt.

Zoroarcanine

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Pija You’re welcome! As someone else who mostly experiences mental compulsions, I totally get it. Just let your therapist know anything you may think is a compulsion and work from there. I believe in you though and wish you nothing but the best!

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

An obsession is a thought you can’t get rid of and a compulsion is something you do to get rid of it.

Pija

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 That's the thing I don't know what I do to get rid of these thoughts because nothing works except for distracting myself

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@Pija For me it is fighting against the thoughts or trying to push them out. I think these are mental compulsions.

Pija

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 Yeah I just did some googling(im pretty sure this is a compulsion of mine) and I ruminate a lot without even realizing. I mentally review my past, trying to push the thought away, checking... I don't even realize I do these things they come automatically

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@Pija I’m glad you’re okay.

Whisper

Date posted: 19w

How do I know I have OCD?

Hey, so I've never actually been diagnosed with OCD. I did a little bit of research, I always thought OCD was organizing things. But I'm not normal, I have this thing where I feel something isn't right. I obsess over it or if I brush my hand over something correctly then it's fixed. Or I have to do this thing on stairs, I'll walk up a few or down them because something isn't right. I read this thing on memories. I know something happened, but then I doubt myself to the point I don't know if it happened. And I think too logically in relationships. I'll put statistics on things and if they might not work out I distance myself, there's other odd things I do. My family always told me I was fine but then said things like I was messed up, and said to just ignore what I felt. Like I was making it up. I don't know what to do, I don't have a doctor currently, I was never diognosed. Is there a way to be sure I have it? Or a way to stop everything? I just want to stop everything, please and thank you. Sorry for the long post. If anyone can help, I would be so thankful.

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Is schizo ocd a thing?

I have been having these fears about developing schizophrenia, it reached a point where i am starting to almost hear things or the smallest sounds and my mind tells me you're schizophrenic, and i feel this weird sensations in my ear as if someone is whispering yet i can barely hear them, the thing is i am not diagnosed yet because i never work with an OCD therapist but i study psychology so i just used what i learnt to give a meaning to my suffering, many themes of this fear have been happening before and this schizophrenia fear is the last one. I want to know what advice you can give me or ways to make my brain calm down a little bit, i also don't have and can't afford a therapist that's why i am here in the first place I also want to know more informations or experiences with this theme if anyone habe experienced it and what helped you with it I remember feeling better for a while but than i collapsed back, but i am hoping to get better soon too or anytime in the future, I don't want reassurance so make sure you be as real as you can, and thanks 🙏🏻

K1790

Date posted: 11w

Unsure if OCD sometimes

I was diagnosed with OCD around the age of 6, subtype- contamination primarily. It calmed down as I got older and I assumed it had gone away, but also didn’t realize it can show up in other ways, and it still had been effecting me which I know now. I’m not 31 and I’ve been in therapy for a year and it’s helped a lot, although I sometimes get thoughts that what if some of the stuff I’m dealing with isn’t ocd and I’m exaggerating. I feel like thoughts will feel sticky and I’ll do certain compulsions but then the thought eventually vanishes if I do it a few times which makes me think maybe it’s not OCD since other people/friends I know would probably do the exact same thing. Not sure if I’m making sense, but I guess my question is if that thought comes up with anyone else? Just being unsure if something you’re doing actually is ocd or not.

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