Seeing signs Everywhere/ Real Event

So for about a year now I have been dealing with the uncertainty of a real event that happened decades ago. My mind only tells me the outcome of that event is the worst case scenario. It has been obsessively on my mind for a year, everyday all day. I started seeing the theme or what I was obsessed about everywhere. It got so bad that I thought God was telling me something that I started to ask God to tell me if it was true. Well then I kept seeing signs that confirmed my fear even some that were so exact that on what I was obsessing about I have almost convinced my self that God has been telling me stuff through videos, license plates, phrases or words spelled out in names I see, things I hear in conversations form other people and movies. Then there is the rare occasion I get some type of confirmation that what I’m obsessing about is not true. So I ask myself is God telling me now it’s not true. The signs that say my fear is true seem to be the ones that stick and the ones that say my fear isn’t true seem to just fade away. I’ve never dealt with this before. Anyone else deal with this or seeing signs of your fearful obsession everywhere

hmkeiper

Date posted: 1y

I don't have these exact thoughts but extremely similar. I believe heavily in angel numbers being my signs, music being spiritual signs that eventually turn quite cynical if i let them, even without changing genres or anything at all just my own perspective,, i get deja vu all the time, and my paranoia is gotten so bad because of this stuff :/

hmkeiper

Date posted: 1y

@hmkeiper Like for example- 333 is my angel number. So if i see a 3 anywhere, its a sign. It all started with that stupid 11:11 thing lol. But my point is, i've gone as far as thinking so so many times that these signs were from the opposite side of the spiritual spectrum i wish to stay on. I can convince myself of almost anything 😭

Nitro929

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

I have similar thoughts over the past three years. We have to remember that God is good and only good things come from him. We tend to only focus on the negative and get caught in the all or nothing thinking loop. Don't doubt what you already know as faith is not a feeling. Hang in there and praying for comfort and peace as you continue your journey towards recovery.

GHOST22

Date posted: 1y

Thanks, it’s just really hard. Especially when you see your obsession everywhere and you think God is telling you your fears are true regarding your obsession. But it seems the only answers I get or think I’m getting are always negative ones. I mean the real event is always in my head for the last year. It will never go away and I’m thinking about it literally all day everyday until I sleep. It’s torture

bloominglotus

Date posted: 1y

I’m dealing with the exact thing. I have something that is a real memory but there’s something about it that I’m hoping is false and I’m unclear about. I keep seeing TikTok’s saying “this is a sign from God” and other random things saying yes and I feel like I’m just ignoring it because there’s no possible way for me to know exactly the truth. It’s so confusing and scary. I’ve been dealing with it for about a year now as well. I’m so sorry for you and I hope that things can get better.

GHOST22

Date posted: 1y

Yeah it’s so hard and confusing. I know how you feel. I find some kind of connection to my obsession in almost everything I watch or see or hear.

Bob32

Date posted: 45w

Me too. I’m so scared. My religious ocd makes me feel crazy

Buddyfriend

Date posted: 21w

Real Event Ocd

My ocd latches on to past mistakes. i fear that God is formulating a situation to “give me what i deserve.” I will string together completely unrelated events into the predictors/indicators that my ‘judgement day’ is near and all my wrongdoings will be exposed for everyone to see and my life will be ruined by finally getting the punishment i deserve. I fear that God is going to use someone who is out to get me, wants revenge, hates me, etc, to carry this out. The associated compulsion is that i keep track of my mistakes and practice arguments for defending myself so that when the time comes im ready for anything. I also punish myself with guilt so that i can “get ahead” on any bad feelings that i would experience on my judgement day. It’s all so exhausting. Does anyone relate? Does anyone have a similar existence? Would love to hear about others’ experiences. Thank you for reading.

🧡🍁🎃

Date posted: 17w

OCD with posts and online activity

Does anyone experience ocd really bad with posts they see online? I just saw a post just now about someone who said they’ve come to terms with dying in their early twenties, and it popped up on my Instagram for you page and i panicked. I’m 20 myself and posts like this genuinely scare me because I always think “It’s a sign or there is a reason it’s popping up on my page.” Has anyone dealt with this before or had an instance like this? Especially with those posts that say if you don’t share or like it something bad will happen, it genuinely freaks me out and I love instagram.

LillyX

Date posted: 13w

Are really odd coincidences common in FM/ocd?

Like things that feel like ‘evidence’ and clues…. It’s like I can’t let these things go. I’m not talking about ‘signs from the universe’ , I mean actual real life things your ocd is using against you. Not reassurance seeking.

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