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- 1y
Pocd
Im overwhelmed and stressed. My child was talking to me and i worrt about groinals but I didnt want to ignore them so i look at them when they talk to me.
Im overwhelmed and stressed. My child was talking to me and i worrt about groinals but I didnt want to ignore them so i look at them when they talk to me.
I have pocd too, I love my kids so much but face many challenges around them.
@Jesse1982 Wish you the best
@Anonynmous19 - I wish u the best too
Disregard. It has really helped my brain shift focus to the task rather than fear.
@Anonymous Thank you
@Anonymous Idk why i like body hair but than if i look at my childs arms and legs i worry is that bad but i cant just not look at my child. My anxiety is bad today. It says if i like body hair but see it on my child or someone else is that inappropriate or did i look inappropriately. But other parents without pocd dont even think this they just say whatever.
@Anonynmous19 My ocd hyperfocuses on body hair all the time than i worry that i notice it and is it bad or was my intent bad or why do i look at that
The way to get better is actually to stop avoiding your triggers. You actually should practice looking at your child, then allowing your head to fill up with OCD thoughts, and then keep going forward with your life. Are you in treatment? This is the type of thing you might conquer with therapy, because you will practice ERP therapy and start to try to not avoid children. My breathing OCD didn’t become manageable until I stopped avoiding scenarios that triggered it.
@Tea and Honey I appreciate it its hard because Im stressed. I was scrolling through kids youtube to pick a channel for my child to watch and than i worry after scrolling that i shouldnt scroll more in case i see kids. And i get intrusive thoughts. I kept scrolling and than chose a channel but worry was i acting on those thoughts to keep scrolling. So if i avoid it i am letting ocd control me if i fsce the trigger in this case keep casually scrolling tv chsnnels i feel guilty
@Anonynmous19 It’s okay. Let yourself feel guilty. It’s part of your training. You have to build a tolerance to feeling uncomfortable and guilty. I know I say this, but it’s hard for me too. However, it is the RIGHT answer. For example, my family was at a friend’s house today. I said something, and I was worried that I shouldn’t have used that particular word, and that I might be doomed to hell forever now. I felt like maybe I needed to correct myself and fix what I said. But I didn’t do it. I felt uncomfortable and like I was risking my eternal salvation by doing nothing. But I kept sitting there doing nothing. About 10 minutes later, I thought maybe I should go to the bathroom and think about this situation—and then maybe “fix” or correct what I said when I had some place to think clearly. But I didn’t go to the bathroom. I just stayed and talked with everyone for the rest of the evening —even though I was uncomfortable the whole time. I still feel uncomfortable (and I am home now). It might take some time for those feelings to go away. But this is just par for the course with OCD treatment. Being uncomfortable and feeling terrible and feeling fear and feeling guilty are all part of treatment. This is going to happen. This means you are doing something right. When you are practicing using your tools to conquer the OCD, just realize that you are going to have to sit through some awful emotions. BUT THAT IS THE PATH TO RECOVERY. Let yourself experience the guilt. It’s not real—just like the OCD is not real. The more you practice this, the easier it gets to defeat the OCD.
A compulsion i do is if i get a groinal or anticipate it i take a step. Adjust my legs and feet to avoid the groinals. I was carrying my daughter and worry about groinals which sucks. I had groinals when I picked her up but discarded it didnt give it attention. Then when i put her down i had intrusive thoughts about groinals worrying if i get it. I took a step to my right and just sat with the groinals and the thoughts. I do t remember if i took a second step or not but ocd hyper-focused in the groinal sensations and i feel guilty its telling me i took tbe step to get groinals and i sat with it to arouse myself but i think i took the step as a compulsion and my ocd hyperfocused on the ocd and was aware of it and just let it be but ocd is saying i acted on the thoughts and aroused myself i know thats not true.
I’m scared I might become a r*pist I’m over here thinking at a time I saw a kid and I looked down at his pants like I keep thinking about what I did and it’s like I feel attracted and to me it felt like I gave him this predator look and he probably thinks I’m a P I just wonder how is this Pocd Because it feels like I want to do stuff like I don’t know I keep thinking about that situation
Ugh i was making salah and has groinals. And worried i heard my childs voice. I struggke with pocd. I moved my legs because it hit the bed and i heard my kids voice then i felt groinals as i was bowing in ruku. My compulsion is saying stop and no and adjusting. And my ocd also causes involuntary intrusivr movements. Like sudden twitches or hip thrusts or bodily movements. I just remember adjusting while in ruku and saying no and stop to the thoughts. I also remember feeling thr groinals and just being in third person and observing jt. I also froze up and felt stuck. This happened twice. Then ocd says i was arousing myself over my kids voice during salah which i know is absurd its ego dystonic its ocd. I hate having pocd and groinals. I know i was just adjusting because ei hit the bed. Then i felt groinals and heard my kids voice and felt triggered by pocd. Then i felt my body twitching in ruku and me adjusting and also freezing up and getting stuck. Ocd tries ti make me thing i did something sexually inappropriate during prayer. I know thats not who i am. I dont do sexual inappropriate acts and especially not during prayer. I’ve already been very anxious for days so i know its just a continuation of ocd attacking me. I just hate that ofd makes me think by me adjusting and by bodily movements anxiously intrusively incoluntary moving and me getting stuck that i did something bad thats what ocd tells me. I know its not true. Why does ocd make us think or feel we did something bad
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