Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 1y
Pocd
Im overwhelmed and stressed. My child was talking to me and i worrt about groinals but I didnt want to ignore them so i look at them when they talk to me.
Jesse1982 Jesse1982
- Date posted
- 1y
I have pocd too, I love my kids so much but face many challenges around them.
Anonynmous19Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 1y
@Jesse1982 Wish you the best
Jesse1982 Jesse1982
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonynmous19 - I wish u the best too
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Disregard. It has really helped my brain shift focus to the task rather than fear.
Anonynmous19Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Thank you
Anonynmous19Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonymous Idk why i like body hair but than if i look at my childs arms and legs i worry is that bad but i cant just not look at my child. My anxiety is bad today. It says if i like body hair but see it on my child or someone else is that inappropriate or did i look inappropriately. But other parents without pocd dont even think this they just say whatever.
Anonynmous19Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonynmous19 My ocd hyperfocuses on body hair all the time than i worry that i notice it and is it bad or was my intent bad or why do i look at that
Tea and HoneyTea and Honey
- Date posted
- 1y
The way to get better is actually to stop avoiding your triggers. You actually should practice looking at your child, then allowing your head to fill up with OCD thoughts, and then keep going forward with your life. Are you in treatment? This is the type of thing you might conquer with therapy, because you will practice ERP therapy and start to try to not avoid children. My breathing OCD didn’t become manageable until I stopped avoiding scenarios that triggered it.
Anonynmous19Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 1y
@Tea and Honey I appreciate it its hard because Im stressed. I was scrolling through kids youtube to pick a channel for my child to watch and than i worry after scrolling that i shouldnt scroll more in case i see kids. And i get intrusive thoughts. I kept scrolling and than chose a channel but worry was i acting on those thoughts to keep scrolling. So if i avoid it i am letting ocd control me if i fsce the trigger in this case keep casually scrolling tv chsnnels i feel guilty
Tea and HoneyTea and Honey
- Date posted
- 1y
@Anonynmous19 It’s okay. Let yourself feel guilty. It’s part of your training. You have to build a tolerance to feeling uncomfortable and guilty. I know I say this, but it’s hard for me too. However, it is the RIGHT answer. For example, my family was at a friend’s house today. I said something, and I was worried that I shouldn’t have used that particular word, and that I might be doomed to hell forever now. I felt like maybe I needed to correct myself and fix what I said. But I didn’t do it. I felt uncomfortable and like I was risking my eternal salvation by doing nothing. But I kept sitting there doing nothing. About 10 minutes later, I thought maybe I should go to the bathroom and think about this situation—and then maybe “fix” or correct what I said when I had some place to think clearly. But I didn’t go to the bathroom. I just stayed and talked with everyone for the rest of the evening —even though I was uncomfortable the whole time. I still feel uncomfortable (and I am home now). It might take some time for those feelings to go away. But this is just par for the course with OCD treatment. Being uncomfortable and feeling terrible and feeling fear and feeling guilty are all part of treatment. This is going to happen. This means you are doing something right. When you are practicing using your tools to conquer the OCD, just realize that you are going to have to sit through some awful emotions. BUT THAT IS THE PATH TO RECOVERY. Let yourself experience the guilt. It’s not real—just like the OCD is not real. The more you practice this, the easier it gets to defeat the OCD.
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Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 25w
Pocd 18+
Im at work and work is where my ocd is triggered most. I plugged in the solar panels and remembered my friend whos an electrician. Than i had intrusive thoughts of his daughter and sexual intrusive thoughts. I felt so anxious and am having a hard time breathing. I said a prayer and kept working. Then ocd said was i praying for something inappropriate but thats absurd and not true. Then the intrusivr thought was of female erogenous areas. It was just a thought of a female provate lart. It was like the thought of my friends face then his daughters face then the female erogenous part. So ocd says was the intrusive thought of a adult female erogenous part or a minors. Then ocd says i like adult women so did i like the thought of the female private part. Idk what the thought was it was just a female erogneous part that popped in my head. I know im not a pedophile. I know i dont want ocd thoughts. I know the thoughts made me anxious. Then ocd says if it was a intrusive thought of a small female erogenous part its a pocd intrusive thoughts. If it was a thought of a big female erogenous part it is an adults part. Idk what the thought was tbh now my memorys blurred. I just recall having their faces pop in my head then a thought of a female private part and i remember being super anxious panicking and having a hard time breathing from the anxiety. I know this is indication its ocd and anxiety. I dont like these thoughts and dont want them. Im not a pedophile. Im terrified by the thoughts and i know my anxious reaction disproves the ocd intrusive thoughts and doubts. I know who i am. Im a faithful husband and not a pedophile. I dont want these thoughts it’s distracting me from work as im ruminating and writing this. I feel like crying. I dont want sexual intrusive thoughts. I dont want pocd thoughts. Help!
Anonynmous19
- Date posted
- 25w
Pocd
I had to give my daughter a bath and wanted to help my wife bear the responsibility also read online pocd to not avoid bathing. I told myself I am going to bathe my child because im a good dad. As i bathed her i went to wipe her arms and torso. I was going to get her armpit and arm but with the sponge I wiped her chest erogenous area. Then i got anxious and did a compulsion and said “im sorry”. Then ocd said whyd i wipe there ni shouldve wiped her arm or armpit. Was i doing anything inappropriate. Or ocd said not to wipe there and I did so did i do anything inappropriate or with inappropriate intent. I hate having pocd and living parallel with this voice in my head. I know my intention wasnt inappropriate i even prep talked before and did the compulsion of apologizing after wiping. Now im questioning whyd i wipe there first before her arms and armpit since ocd told me to avoid her chest. Then i worry did i have ocd intrusive thought saying i wanted to wipe there and if i had this thought and i wiped there than it means i acted on the thought. I know i wouldnt do anything inappropriate to my child and i know my intent wasnt wrong.
caffelattino
- Date posted
- 22w
pocd?
I'm 21 and eventually I would like to have a child. I am terrified about the fact that I could have sexual thoughts about them... So now I am filled with intrusive thoughts. How should I respond to these? "So yes, what if I will have intrusive thoughts about that?" But im terrified because a normal person shouldnt think about even that at all. I am so scared. I cannot respond "what if" because this is too serious and it makes me so bad if i respond "what if"
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