it’s so embarrassing doing compulsions in front of people. like i literally NEED to do them or i can’t function. one of my compulsions is praying so sometimes it seems like i be talking to myself. anyone else relate to this?
Figure this many people pray in public. 9 times out of 10 I notice this with people and don’t think too much about it. Sometimes I do pray publicly also . Figure this there are much worse things than prayer in this world. If you can diminish being self conscious about it , much of the hold it has on you won’t be so bad.
I tried explaining to my daughter one of my compulsions when I’m in the car (she was with me) is that I have to have all volumes set to increments of 5 and she said okay, but then I felt uncomfortable giving into it again so I just sat in my extreme anxiety until I could get home. I had to go to my room because I thought I was going to have a panic attack. It seems so little to other people, but it is a huge trigger for me :( I’ve been belittled about it so many times from friends and family that this just feels like one more person who I have to hide from.
She probably won't understand that young, this sounds normal for OCD
I have done this, even when I was working
Religious OCD is terrifying because I can't logic out of it. I can try saying "that's not how God works," but then my brain will be like, how do you *know*. Like does anyone else have religious OCD and feel the need to pray all the time? If so how do you avoid that urge? How do you find a healthy relationship with religion when even the smallest mention of it triggers you?
I feel uncomfortable when people notice me having to do a ritual to stop my OCD thoughts....
Does any Christian experience the same? I am a Christian but when in public and a friend of mine starts speaking about faith or something related to it I feel embarrassed especially when someone else can listen. Then it freaks me out that I feel that way then the situation becomes stressful which as I think triggers my ocd because I always get blasphemous thoughts. Then I can not say if those thoughts were from me or from ocd then I feel bad I hate myself etc etc. Could I classify that as ocd?
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