If life couldn't help giving me ocd at birth, I wish that it didn't give me pocd out of all the other themes. I know it's not fair to say this, but I wasn't this much depressed when I had contamination ocd and pure ocd.
I said the same thing about my Harm OCD and then my own POCD and then my Health OCD , but I Came to the conclusion that all OCD is draining and sucks, no matter if it's Harm OCD or POCD or HOCD, they all effect you equaly and when you look back at old times you think UGH WISH I COULD GO BACK I COULD DEAL WITH IT MORE. But when you think about back then you couldn't deal with it as well as now because the you of now learned and gained experience. So in a couple years you'll say the same thing about your POCD, so just give it time and know you can do it.
you think pocd can become a theme of the past? how did you get over pocd? was it because a new different theme came in randomly and replaced pocd or did you do some therapy?
@Nameless000 I've had many experiences with ocd from different "themes" and frankly its all the same at it's core, I get a new thought in my head, It's fucked up, I get anxious, I start trying to delete it from my mind but it just gets worse, I start trying to prove to my self that that idea was by mistake... I didn't mean to... Then I think I did it on purpose and that I am actully attarcted to kids and I am just a pedophile, and then when Ever I look at kids I wonder If I am attracted to them and then I get intrusive thoughts and then I obbsesivly think about it frok dusk till dawn. So POCD can be a thing of the best but that doesn't mean you can fully get rid of it, OCD is stuck with you forever, so instead you have to learn how to propurly deal with it, with therapy, trial and error and not obbsessing over the reasurance, and no it wasn't because a new theme accured, it was because I faced my fear and got out of my comfort zone and I do get new themes everyonce in a while but I deal with them because from experience I know when it's my ocd playing tricks on me and YES therapy does help and if you can't afford it, talk here and try to learn about OCD because I realized when Ever I read about the articals tend to pin point EXACTLY what I am going through, just make sure it's a relable source and not a 12 year old girl on tiktok. And there are 2 sayings that I think my help which have helped me, first " I have ocd but ocd doesn't have me" and the second "Just because I am anxious doesn't mean I am in dangour or is a dangour to others". I know I wrote a lot but hope I gave you a bit more clarity š¾ and goodluck many people on here have learned how to deal with ocd and so can you! ( sorry for the grammer mistakes )
@Anonymous Thing of the *PAST* not best, appologies.
@Anonymous Thank you a lot for opening up, I really appreciate it. I'll try to do the same as you did
Yes...I have it and it has to be the worst theme. I agree. I'm so sick of it... mentally and physically. I just can't believe I have this horrible theme. Just know you aren't alone
Yes I agree with anonymous, I suffer from Relationship OCD AND POCD and when my head is stuck on one the Iām wishing I had the other one and then when my head goes back to the other one Iām wishing I was back to the last one, itās a nasty cycle, all the same at the end of the day, but I do get what youāre saying! POCD is not fun!
Im tired of knowing that people have blocked me on NOCD for my pocd / real events ocd posts... Im tired of knowing that I have real events that are POCD related... Im tired of getting intrusive thoughts and false memories of the worst case scenario for my pocd and real events ocd being true... Im so tired of it all...
This is really ruining me and Iām at the lowest point of this. Iām not suicidal or anything and Iām not depressed but I canāt bear with this anymore. POCD is the worst ocd Iāve ever dealt with and Iām too scared to tell a therapist about this. What do I do
(Long post warning) Hi, Iāve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didnāt graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and thatās why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I donāt know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and itās been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now theyāre ten times worse. I canāt eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. Iāve developed so many mental compulsions that itās so intricate and complicated yet at the same time Iāve done them so much that theyāve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a ābadā thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (thatāll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I canāt open apps on my phone. Itās with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just donāt do things usually. I donāt turn on the TV because I know Iāll redo it. I donāt open a book or grab it off my shelf because Iāll have to repeat the action. I canāt even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I donāt know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. Iāve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I donāt do them in front of anyone or Iāve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.
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