If life couldn't help giving me ocd at birth, I wish that it didn't give me pocd out of all the other themes. I know it's not fair to say this, but I wasn't this much depressed when I had contamination ocd and pure ocd.
I said the same thing about my Harm OCD and then my own POCD and then my Health OCD , but I Came to the conclusion that all OCD is draining and sucks, no matter if it's Harm OCD or POCD or HOCD, they all effect you equaly and when you look back at old times you think UGH WISH I COULD GO BACK I COULD DEAL WITH IT MORE. But when you think about back then you couldn't deal with it as well as now because the you of now learned and gained experience. So in a couple years you'll say the same thing about your POCD, so just give it time and know you can do it.
you think pocd can become a theme of the past? how did you get over pocd? was it because a new different theme came in randomly and replaced pocd or did you do some therapy?
@Nameless000 I've had many experiences with ocd from different "themes" and frankly its all the same at it's core, I get a new thought in my head, It's fucked up, I get anxious, I start trying to delete it from my mind but it just gets worse, I start trying to prove to my self that that idea was by mistake... I didn't mean to... Then I think I did it on purpose and that I am actully attarcted to kids and I am just a pedophile, and then when Ever I look at kids I wonder If I am attracted to them and then I get intrusive thoughts and then I obbsesivly think about it frok dusk till dawn. So POCD can be a thing of the best but that doesn't mean you can fully get rid of it, OCD is stuck with you forever, so instead you have to learn how to propurly deal with it, with therapy, trial and error and not obbsessing over the reasurance, and no it wasn't because a new theme accured, it was because I faced my fear and got out of my comfort zone and I do get new themes everyonce in a while but I deal with them because from experience I know when it's my ocd playing tricks on me and YES therapy does help and if you can't afford it, talk here and try to learn about OCD because I realized when Ever I read about the articals tend to pin point EXACTLY what I am going through, just make sure it's a relable source and not a 12 year old girl on tiktok. And there are 2 sayings that I think my help which have helped me, first " I have ocd but ocd doesn't have me" and the second "Just because I am anxious doesn't mean I am in dangour or is a dangour to others". I know I wrote a lot but hope I gave you a bit more clarity š¾ and goodluck many people on here have learned how to deal with ocd and so can you! ( sorry for the grammer mistakes )
@Anonymous Thing of the *PAST* not best, appologies.
@Anonymous Thank you a lot for opening up, I really appreciate it. I'll try to do the same as you did
Yes...I have it and it has to be the worst theme. I agree. I'm so sick of it... mentally and physically. I just can't believe I have this horrible theme. Just know you aren't alone
Yes I agree with anonymous, I suffer from Relationship OCD AND POCD and when my head is stuck on one the Iām wishing I had the other one and then when my head goes back to the other one Iām wishing I was back to the last one, itās a nasty cycle, all the same at the end of the day, but I do get what youāre saying! POCD is not fun!
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
I want to go do something I enjoy so badly but I feel like I donāt deserve it. Iām full of guilt, shame, and anxiety. I wish I felt okay like I did a few days ago. I feel so awful right now. I hate OCD. I HATE pocd. I hate all of it. I wish this was easier. Sometimes I have the thought that I wish I was the things my OCD makes me afraid I am out of desperation to stop the anxiety, but then that thought makes me panic bc I donāt actually mean that or want that I just want the anxiety and urgency in the compulsions to stop. Iām so tired
Please read this. Iāve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. Iām 21 with 2 kids and i believe iāve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. Iāve been thinking if iād intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). Iāve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. Iāve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like iām a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I canāt hold my daughter right. I canāt change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because itās either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldnāt be more thankful at all for them. Iām just so lost and stressed right now that i just donāt know what to do anymore
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