If life couldn't help giving me ocd at birth, I wish that it didn't give me pocd out of all the other themes. I know it's not fair to say this, but I wasn't this much depressed when I had contamination ocd and pure ocd.
I said the same thing about my Harm OCD and then my own POCD and then my Health OCD , but I Came to the conclusion that all OCD is draining and sucks, no matter if it's Harm OCD or POCD or HOCD, they all effect you equaly and when you look back at old times you think UGH WISH I COULD GO BACK I COULD DEAL WITH IT MORE. But when you think about back then you couldn't deal with it as well as now because the you of now learned and gained experience. So in a couple years you'll say the same thing about your POCD, so just give it time and know you can do it.
you think pocd can become a theme of the past? how did you get over pocd? was it because a new different theme came in randomly and replaced pocd or did you do some therapy?
@Nameless000 I've had many experiences with ocd from different "themes" and frankly its all the same at it's core, I get a new thought in my head, It's fucked up, I get anxious, I start trying to delete it from my mind but it just gets worse, I start trying to prove to my self that that idea was by mistake... I didn't mean to... Then I think I did it on purpose and that I am actully attarcted to kids and I am just a pedophile, and then when Ever I look at kids I wonder If I am attracted to them and then I get intrusive thoughts and then I obbsesivly think about it frok dusk till dawn. So POCD can be a thing of the best but that doesn't mean you can fully get rid of it, OCD is stuck with you forever, so instead you have to learn how to propurly deal with it, with therapy, trial and error and not obbsessing over the reasurance, and no it wasn't because a new theme accured, it was because I faced my fear and got out of my comfort zone and I do get new themes everyonce in a while but I deal with them because from experience I know when it's my ocd playing tricks on me and YES therapy does help and if you can't afford it, talk here and try to learn about OCD because I realized when Ever I read about the articals tend to pin point EXACTLY what I am going through, just make sure it's a relable source and not a 12 year old girl on tiktok. And there are 2 sayings that I think my help which have helped me, first " I have ocd but ocd doesn't have me" and the second "Just because I am anxious doesn't mean I am in dangour or is a dangour to others". I know I wrote a lot but hope I gave you a bit more clarity 🌾 and goodluck many people on here have learned how to deal with ocd and so can you! ( sorry for the grammer mistakes )
@Anonymous Thing of the *PAST* not best, appologies.
@Anonymous Thank you a lot for opening up, I really appreciate it. I'll try to do the same as you did
Yes...I have it and it has to be the worst theme. I agree. I'm so sick of it... mentally and physically. I just can't believe I have this horrible theme. Just know you aren't alone
Yes I agree with anonymous, I suffer from Relationship OCD AND POCD and when my head is stuck on one the I’m wishing I had the other one and then when my head goes back to the other one I’m wishing I was back to the last one, it’s a nasty cycle, all the same at the end of the day, but I do get what you’re saying! POCD is not fun!
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
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