Losing interest in the one thing I grew up with

Video games. I'm losing my enjoyment over them. I either get annoyed at a game, angry that I'm losing because I just can't help but take it personally I guess, or just flat out bored with games I'm not really used to. They just aren't what they used to be. Idk if it's because of OCD or depression or anxiety or whatever, I just no longer enjoy them. No matter what I do, a competitive game just puts me in a bad mood even if I'm trying my absolute best to not take it personally. It just happens.

bowler5781

Date posted: 1y

I'm in a similar boat. It could just be stress from living with OCD or other factors, but I've had to out some games down because of how I was reacting to them. Maybe you'll be able to find other games for a bit, or just take a break from them to focus on yourself for a bit. I feel like when video games start to become an escape instead of an outlet, we might end up associating the feelings we're escaping from with games themselves. I hope you're able to work through it though.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

I've been living with OCD for 4 years now. I can't even believe it's already been that long but it has. It's been bothering me every day of my life. I'm always reminded of what I didn't do right, or how I got addicted to stuff. I'm always think about my failures and I guess since I'm not having fun in games or losing at them, it's just leads to my inner voice saying really mean things

bowler5781

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 I've seen some of your other posts and I genuinely think we're in the same boat. Our journey may not be the exact same, but I feel like I relate to you on a lot of levels. And sometimes it's nice to know that when you're struggling with something, you're not alone and you have people who can understand what you're going through. If you want to talk more let me know, I'm happy to support.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@bowler5781 I agree, it helps when other people can understand your struggles on a bit of a higher level. Overall I'm just sick of having a low opinion of myself. I'm sick of OCD constantly thinking bad things about myself, I'm sick of my inner critic constantly bashing me and everything I do, and I'm just done with the stress and anxiety. I can't enjoy anything else to the fullest because of this

bowler5781

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 In this moment it definitely feels that way, and I deal with that too. But OCD has two main strengths that we can make its weakness, doubt and optimism. It makes us doubt our thoughts, memories and intent, and beats down optimism with a critical inner banter so we feel like we have no choice. But, if we instead consciously choose to doubt OCD and believe in an optimistic future, saying the maybe-maybe nots and looking forward to the idea of a tomorrow whether or not it's true, we can make it a little weaker, make the bad days less bad and the good days more good. At least, that's the spin I try to put on it.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@bowler5781 For me the problems are events that actually did happen. Things. I know are real and weren't dreams or false memories. All of this comes from the past of what didn't go right or what was out of my control. There are things that I could be doing to make it weaker though. Not searching online for reassurance is a really bad one I have and ruminating.

bowler5781

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 I also deal with real event, and have identified a lot with things you struggle with as well. I promise you you are not alone in this, and you deserve to heal.

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

@bowler5781 Thanks. That helps. I appreciate that

bowler5781

Date posted: 1y

@BigGyro09 Of course. And like I said if you ever want to talk more I'd be happy to, support networks are really importants.

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y

Might be a dopamine issue. Take a break from it for a while and try to do productive things first thing in the morning before looking at anything on your phone etc. The more you do stuff that release dopamine, the more it requires for that certain thing until you'll need to do more extreme or challenging things to get the same type of high or buzz

BigGyro09

Date posted: 1y

Do you have any suggestions? Thanks in advance

Blueberrycows

Date posted: 25w

Not really OCD related

So I’m so bored lately I have everything I want and could ask for but I’m a dopamine junkie so I jump from item to item and I’m still bored and I have “toys “ stay with me I’ll explain … so I have actual toys like dolls and stuffed animals because I still enjoy younger things at times … yep I’m still an adult … but that being said I won’t “play “ or interact with younger toys because I feel it’s not age appropriate and I want to fit in with society’s norms … that being said I have a Xbox s I have a Nintendo switch … a legion go hand held system … a portable dvd player and I’m sure other things I can’t remember… no I don’t act like a spoiled brat and want or need for everything and I’m very grateful…. But that being said out of all the things I have nothing really keeps my attention I just impulse buy them… I obsess about buying them for months I buy them and use them for a little bit and get bored …… then I feel ungrateful for not using an expensive item or gift.:. Go back and use that item and then the cycle repeats … I just can’t find anything that truly keeps me entertained and engaged … and keeps me wanting to fool with it every day or interact with it …. I want to find something that gives me a sense of accomplishment and excitement… and game systems and whatever else just don’t do that for me … like I said I promise I’m not a spoiled adult /brat ❤️

Staleverse

Date posted: 24w

Magical thinking OCD with video games

I have a genuine fear of playing video games due to my magical thinking OCD. It’s driving me crazy. I get this overwhelming sense of anxiety when I play them. I have a correlation between video games and a health thing that started around the time I was playing video games a lot. Now I feel like every time I play a game it’s gonna cause that problem to come back. Any suggestions on how to conquer this?

mental Warrior

Date posted: 24w

Who even is the person I was before OCD?!

The things that used to make me happy? The things that used to make me sad? I don't know how to connect with those anymore. I used to be happy just looking at the sunset and nature, I loved being present in the moment but now being present in the moment is scary because now I'm faced with my thoughts and new potential ones so I'd rather distract myself. I love kballads and I used to listen to them and just cry and be happy because they sound so beautiful but now I can't embrace these things that feel like beauty because I feel like the exact opposite. The only things I can enjoy are K-drama's! But I can't watch things with kids in it. So yah that's tricky! And the things that make me sad?! Well I used to be sad and terrified about loosing my loved ones but now it's a different kind of sad. I used to be sad because of miss them and all that but now I'm scared of facing now messed up my emotions have become. I'm scared of loosing someone I love and then not being able to feel sad because I'm just numb, or even worse...if it becomes something I'm okay with or what if OCD convinces me that I'm happy about it because honestly it would be weird moving around the world with such emotions. So not only has OCD made it hard for me to enjoy the good things but also hard for me to feel sad about the sad things or just to put it short...to experience emotions normally.

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