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Trying to feel less alone
SO-OCD sufferer here. Here’s the thing I’m struggling with. I am gay (m) and have never been interested in having sex with a woman (my ocd would say otherwise). I used to be able to be around women in revealing clothing and would think nothing of it. Suddenly I’m super triggered by any kind of low cut t shirt, or really anything that shows a little cleavage, skin, curve, etc. I get visibly uncomfortable around women in anything even sort of revealing. At work I get scared of staring at their chest, then get scared because if I feel an urge to look at their chest then I worry about why I’d even be paying attention to that area if I really am gay. Growing up all of my closest friends were girls and I’ve always seen women as being my friends and nothing more, I HATE that I get these intrusive sexual thoughts and feelings, and I’m so scared that its all real and I’m just pretending to be gay to be “different” or just for attention or something. Anyways if there are any other gay dudes experiencing this I’d like to hear your thoughts and experiences. I’ve never met another gay guy that goes through this and just wanna feel less alone in it