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Same. I had this and was able to get over it by not googling. However with contamination ocd. I’m soooo repulsed that I can’t apply the technique. It’s really hard
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I’ve had this very badly. E.g spending 3+ hours a night obsessively googling symptoms, at one point. To be honest, I think I had to go through that to finally realize that a) it actually wasn’t decreasing my anxiety, and b) that I will NEVER reach a point of certainty due to the very nature of this illness. I tried to get into the habit of asking myself, “is what I’m doing right now helping or harming me, in the long run?” as soon as I can recognize that I’m slipping into ruminations.
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It’s so hard to stop. It’s almost like being addicted to a drug and knowing that if you’d just give in once, you’d feel a little better. I’m struggling pretty hard with this lately, but I’m getting better at it.
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Yeah it’s awful. I just gave in now to a 20-30 minute google session :( It’s so hard to just ignore a new physical “symptom” that you’ve never felt before.
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A part of me wants to block google on my phone so I *can’t* do it, but then I’m not really learning anything by forcing it, I guess... ?
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@InfiniteLoop Something my therapist recommended is to do “data collection” on your compulsions (googling). Meaning to write down in a spreadsheet whenever you give in to a compulsion, what triggered it, for how long you do the rituals, and what rituals you do. For me, doing this diligently and then actually being able to see that I was spending 3 hours a night googling things and that lo and behold the next day I STILL felt just as awful kinda helped to put things into perspective a bit after doing the data collection for 4-5 days.
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@orangey That’s a great idea! I think I’ll try that
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@InfiniteLoop Awesome, let us know how it goes.
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At the beginning of this year, I experienced false memories for the first time about watching bad stuff online, which I have never done in my life. I then turned to hours upon hours of googling and researching about it and reading articles about it. I'd sometimes google the same articles or topics multiple times a day. I then also remembered that I watched a clip once from Big Mouth (not knowing they were teens at the time). I became so afraid that I was being watched by the authorities or my ISP simply for doing research that I impulsively deleted my Google activity and became extremely paranoid that I was a bad person and a criminal, even though I'd never ever had these types of thoughts before. Then felt bad afterwards because I was like omg what if i am bad because what if it seems like I'm trying to hide a crime. I just really hate myself rn. I know we shouldn't ask for reassurance, but I'm more just pondering this, does this make me a bad person? Is there anyone else who has experienced something similar? Does this mean I still have OCD? or am I truly just only worried about how other people see me? Even while typing this, I'm asking myself, what does this all mean.
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i really struggle with anxiety because on my OCD (not professionally diagnosed but i’ve been experiencing a lot of symptoms for many years that’s it’s safe to assume i have it). the only way to relieve my stress is to google. But google never gave me proper answers or i just ended up more anxious than to begin with. Instead i started using chat gpt as a quick was to get reassurance. i feel bad using it tho because i know it’s just a compulsion to go and seek reassurance to calm my anxiety but if i dont atleast google something i end up spiralling anyways. it feels like no matter what i do ill be anxious .
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