I feel like OCD is slowly trying to take away everything I love and scare me. I had a thought when I went to eat that my ocd would latch onto my food and scare me so I wouldn’t eat again and it scares me. My anxiety is pretty bad right now I’m just exhausted from this it’s a struggle daily
I completely understand how you feel. I had a struggle like this where I believed that any food the color brown would make me sick and that any meats or fish would give me salmonella. Because of this I would constantly be exhausted and starving just like you also said. Fortunately im able to say that I no longer struggle with this fear and am proof that genuinely it gets better. Remember that food is necessary to fuel your body so thought it may be hard on days I found food were triggering I would force myself to have a protein shake just so that my body would have necessary proteins.
@Heyitsmadi Yeah I’m scared my ocd will take away my food. Kinda sounds crazy but the end result would be me dying because I can’t eat. I know it’s just a thought but it’s giving me massive anxiety 😬
wow… i felt like i was reading something i would write… i can relate 100%. currently having an ocd where im fixated on the sensation of food and water in my mouth. makes me scared to eat & drink. and that causes me excited, where it feels like my throat is gonna close. i wish i had the solution to fix both our problems, but just letting you know, you’re not alone!!
@grlwithocd ♥︎︎ edit : anxious not excited*^
@grlwithocd ♥︎︎ Thanks I’ve had the fear of choking before.
Sometimes I worry that I don’t have ocd and that I’m losing my mind and that I’ll never feel better again. I was starting to feel really good last night and I thought it was finally over so I went ahead and did a lot of the stuff I enjoyed doing before this happened (the reason I had to stop was because certain things were triggering in either one way or another) but eventually I hit a point where I just could not bring myself to do something because it was causing too much anxiety. I got this horrible image last night in a dream and then I began to get a flurry of bothersome thoughts, so now I have 2 obsessions to worry about now. The first one is kind of in control but I’m just afraid what’s going to happen to my brain and I’m worried about having an episode in front of my family, who I’m supposed to be having a small dinner with today. I don’t want to tell them what’s going on but I’m afraid they’ll notice that I’m not well. I’m never present because I’m always in my head analyzing and ruminating and worrying. The feeling last night gave me hope that I could be myself again but I just worry that these thoughts will always linger and make me lose my mind. :(
Another rough day. Been dealing with the same intrusive thought for a month and every time I try to rationalize it I'll have a thought not intrusive that I think of that basically keeps reinforcing the fear and makes it still seem real. I am so exhausted. I have my beautiful son to take care of and I feel like my life is getting ripped away from me. I feel like I went too far thinking and that I'll never get out of it this time. And the thought is so silly but I just attached fear to it for whatever reason. A lot of people that don't have ocd/intrusive thought issues would probably make fun of me for the thought. I get embarrassed at how silly and weird it would seem to someone else. I'm scared I'm gonna go crazy or that I am crazy. I feel stuck inside myself. Lost somewhere inside myself. And a bit detached. I just feel hopeless again 😔. I just want to be normal and have a great life with my son 😔.
My OCD has been a little better since I started this whole journey with therapy. The one thing I’m really struggling with is my anxiety. It used to be that my anxiety was fueled by OCD thoughts. It seems to have shifted though to just everyday life. I don’t even feel like I’m thinking about anything yet I have fear everywhere. I feel like I don’t know how to tackle this as it’s new territory. Living with this all day long fear has really started to take a toll depression wise. Just curious if anyone else has had a period like this. Any tips would super help.
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