Trigger - Sexual Assault in a movie.

Trigger - The threat of a sexual assault in a movie. I went to see a movie that I mostly enjoyed. She didn't actually get stripped down and assaulted but she was in a struggle and it almost happened which is terrifying in its own. The way she talked about it is only the words of someone who has been through it. I was overwhelmed physically and emotionally. My heart rate increased and I wasn't even moving. I could feel the tears streaming down my face as I stifled my whimpers and even in the dark felt embarrassed and ashamed. It is not fair. He doesn't walk around with this feeling. He doesn't get triggered and potentially have breakdowns because of it. I have to forgive him so I can heal myself. I can't let go of the hate that is eating away at me. I don't know how to do that. Even now I sit in my bed and can feel my stomach turning. Trying not to ruminate. My thoughts are pouring in. How long will you be able to keep this at bay before it sends you into a break down. Do you have the tools to actually work through this? Are you broken? Why don't you want to be touched. Pray. Pray to forgive him. Pray to get rid of this hate. Pray to release this burden. Pray that the Lord will provide the justice that is deserved. I want to see the positive side. I need to be confident that I am able to do this. I don't want to be triggered when I just want to watch a movie. I don't want to fear seeing him in public. I don't want to think about it. I want to forget. How do I make it stop?

Real Events OCD

Mamachels88

Date posted: 1y

I do see a therapist

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y

Ask them about the possibility of emdr. There is actually a way to do it where you don't even need to talk about the traumas out loud, just think about it. That way you don't have to disclose anything you don't want

Mamachels88

Date posted: 1y

@Wolfram I just set up me first emdr appt

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y

@Mamachels88 Nice. I hope it helps 😊

Mamachels88

Date posted: 1y

I remember it vividly. When I have to recall it, It's like I can smell and feel it. Even the parts I've blocked out. Then my brain makes me question. Did it happen like this. Did I invite this. Was it my fault.

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y

First of all I want to say you didn't deserve what happened. It is not your fault. I'm sorry this happened in your life, I know it's awful. Emdr therapy helped me massively with this and I was able to forgive someone who assaulted me nearly 20 years ago. Not to their face mind you as I never saw them again, but in my mind. All the hatred I held for years towards them is now gone. I was also spiked about 2 years ago and luckily I had friends to make sure I was OK and got me home. I saw the person I suspeof it when I was on a night out last year and wanted to avoid him, I drank a bit much and went up to talk to him. No plan in mind, just small talk. All the fear or whatever I felt went away after that. It's hard to forgive yourself as you feel you've somehow brought it on yourself. It's sometimes worse in hindsight, if not more traumatising when looking back. There is hope in getting better, its how that's usually the biggest hurdle. Are you seeking therapy at all?

Wolfram

Date posted: 1y

Suspected of it*

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Date posted: 24w

So apparently horror movies trigger my intrusive t

How the hell do I tell this to my therapist?! So like I said about shape-sifting fictional characters like Pennywise sometimes when they’re male I get attracted to them by their charm for example bob gray aka Pennywise in It. Idk if you know the IT lore but IT the creature is supposed to be female or so they say but the clown bob gray is male. Which triggers my ocd cause I don’t want to be attracted to a female character now my intrusive thoughts is like oh I can’t handle it I wish I was dead like Georgie. I may have to get rid of everything I have that deals with this movie cause it triggered a thought I thought I would never have. I haven’t even watched the movie but when everyone started talking about it again cause a new series is coming up the thought just keeps coming back😭 SOS

moon0270

Date posted: 20w

Trigger

Idk anymore it feels like being on here is a trigger. Every time I see a minor post on the app, my intrusive thoughts go haywire and then my brain says maybe you should comment something inappropriate and i literally don't wanna fucking do that. It's the last thing I want to do. And now im scared that I commented something crude on someone's post. obviously, when I went to check there was nothing now my brain is saying "you commented and then deleted". I want to think it's something I wouldn't do, but why are the images in my head so real. Children should be safe. I feel like I need to be locked away. Someone please help me.

Jinxx.4444

Date posted: 17w

Triggers

My boyfriend keeps triggering my intrusive thoughts on purpose to mess with me. I've explained how bad they are to him before but i guess he just doesn't get it. He finds it funny when I have such a visceral reaction to him reminding me of them. I hope it doesn't sound too silly but body horror really freaks me out and this one image haunts me so bad when I remember it and he knows that, I trusted him with that knowledge but he loves to just yell out what it is to mess with my head. Now it'll flow in and out of my head for days and I'm gonna have trouble sleeping tonight. Usually distraction works but this one is particularly strong. Does anyone have any good coping skills or tips for going to sleep when it keeps haunting you?

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