Scrupulosity and Sin

Hi ya’all. I’m a Christian with Scrupulosity. I’ve been struggling with lust lately, and it’s been wreaking havoc on my scrupulocity. I get all excited and think it will be fine in the moment, but then I get severely anxious later, to the point where I’m terrified that I’ll go to hell or damage my relationship with God. I struggle to control myself around my boyfriend who I adore, but every time I’m intimate with him, I’m overcome with anxiety about God forgiving me. How do other folks with Scrupulosity handle sin?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

I struggle with this too. I’ve also noticed that I struggle with praying a lot. It became ritualistic instead of genuine so I stopped all together. I feel that god is mad at me all the time when I know he isn’t. Now I am in a relationship and honestly it’s my real first adult relationship and I struggle so much. He is also a Christian but he is not as stressed out with this as I am. Which is okay, but I do wonder if god is mad at me for what I choose to do. In the beginning, I felt soooo guilty about everything. Now I don’t feel that as much, but I still struggle with these ideas of lust and acting on it. Just know that you are not alone and god is not mad at you!!!! I see my relationship with god as a path that we walk next to him on, he never stops walking next to us or going backwards, even when we get off that path. He is always with us and he is not mad at you!!!!

DezzleDrops

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Thank you! This helped me a ton ❤️ I’ll pray for you, that you get through your Scrupulosity struggles. My boyfriend isn’t as worried about it either, but he is Christian. It helps me to use my RPM tools and get my anxiety down before I pray, so that when I pray, it’s not a compulsion and more because I want to connect with God. That might help you with your prayer problem! But thank you for telling me that he isn’t mad at me. It’s hard for me to believe after I stumble. God bless you! I have faith that God won’t forsake us, even when we’re scared!

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@DezzleDrops Thank you for that tool!!! I will try that out. I find it hard to find people like us, so i appreciate you putting this on here!!

DezzleDrops

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous We can get through it together! Thanks again for replying to me

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@DezzleDrops Had to add, my pastor spoke about Philippians 4 today and it helped greatly. I have some really bad life changes (bad in my mind, trying to tell myself that they won’t be that bad) coming this week and next and I feel so lost in the worry of it all. This book really helped and showed that God cares and he is looking out for us! I wanted to share with you to give you hope🫶

DezzleDrops

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous Thank you!!!

cmax20

Date posted: 18w

Sex and religion

Every single time me and my boyfriend do anything sexual, I feel really really guilty about it after. We’ve never had sex before but have done other things and I don’t feel guilty about it in the moment, but afterwards I feel guilty. I don’t necessarily regret doing it but I just feel horrible as a human. He does not push himself on me in anyway and I know it’s all a me thing. He is very cautious in making sure I’m comfortable and feel okay, but I don’t start feeling guilty until afterwards. I feel like this always relates back to my faith, which has recently fallen off. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about this because I always get told the benefits of waiting for marriage. And honestly I do understand that, but I don’t know that I want to wait. I feel like people keep shoving “waiting for marriage” down my throat and it draws me so much further from Christianity and makes things so much harder to feel close to God again. I just feel so lonely in feeling these things and scared I’m going to hell if I keep doing stuff with my boyfriend, but I genuinely don’t know what I believe in anymore and it’s draining me that my values are changing. I know it’s probably healthy and natural for values to change as you grow up, but I feel like there’s a stereotype of Christianity I have to adhere to and it makes me so anxious and scared I’m going to hell if I don’t get everything perfect. My relationship with Christ isn’t something that I involve others in because of how personal it is to me. But I just feel shamed upon by every other Christian and it makes me scared for myself and sad for the way society is making it such a black and white view of this religion.

CJ_022

Date posted: 17w

Scrupulosity

Been having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God. Then sometimes I’m really struggling and I feel resentful, sometimes even towards God, which I know is not right, I want to have reverence. But it feels like sometimes I think the blasphemous thoughts on purpose because of my anger. I don’t know if this is an OCD issue or an issue of my heart or both. But yeah I don’t know what to do.

Mary Hinchliffe

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 14w

Advice?

I’m a Christian and I’m in my first relationship, often feeling guilty/uncomfortable with various things in relation to sexual purity. I’m struggling to know when things are OCD or genuine conviction. Any advice on how to know?

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