Harm Ocd Episode?

So i haven’t had an episode like this in a while. i’ve never actually been diagnosed with harm ocd so im even more terrified. I watched a news story a few years ago about a man who killed his wife by suffocating her and hid her body. well a few weeks ago i seen the same video on TikTok. since then ive had thoughts about killing my boyfriend in the same way. we don’t live together yet and we aren’t engaged but i don’t know why i would think like this. because i had a thought like this does it mean that im planning to do it? i don’t want to do it. i want to spend the rest of my life with him but this makes me want to run. makes me want to not marry him and never move in with him. i don’t want to alone with him because im scared ill do something to harm him. i have a huge lump in my throat and i feel like i secretly want to do it but i know in my heart that i dont. what do i do? i’m freaking out.

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

I'm not a trained therapist, but it appears to me that you're dealing with textbook harm OCD. OCD attaches itself to what and who you value and what you fear. It makes you question your values and who you are, makes you afraid that you're some kind of monster. If you spend time on this community site you'll notice a number of mothers terrified that they're going to harm their children. I've had the same theme concerning my wife, which is why I sought help through NOCD. The good news is it's treatable by incorporating ERP therapy, which most trained OCD therapists use. It's very effective. I strongly recommend that you get into OCD therapy, because without it the disorder has been known to jump around from one theme to another. NOCD can help you. Consultations are free. Hope this helps.

Daniele.paesano

Date posted: 1y

Focus on your feelings and not to your thougts. No: you don't want to make any harm to anyone. The OCD make you doubt of yourself and make it using the person that you care the most. Even if this thougts are so scaring are not linked in anyway to your feelings. Choose a good therapist. Good luck my friend.

laladracu

Date posted: 24w

Harm ocd

I am so scared that my *undiagnosed* OCD is going to make me harm someone close to me in my family. I’m afraid of knives, I’m afraid of things that COULD be a weapon like pens, forks or anything like that. My sister is my BFF and my thoughts have latched onto her. I’m so afraid!! I don’t know how to make them stop. How do I stop and will it eventually subside? How do I work on compulsions? I’m on Zoloft 50mg as well for 3.5 weeks and a lot of my other worries have subsided except this one. I feel like a crazy person :( Also does this sound like OCD?

overthinkerh...

Date posted: 23w

ROCD/ Harm OCD

Anyone experience this? I have had OCD for past 9 years, over the course of that time I have had multiple themes from POCD, false memory OCD, contamination OCD the list goes on. Right now I am struggling with the thought that an ex is going to harm me, my family and fiancé. I am about to get married and my fiancé makes me so happy I am in love and finally found the person that truly completes me. However, of course OCD latched onto that. My OCD convinces me that if my ex finds out I’m going to get married that he will harm me and my family. The other day I did a compulsion and looked at my blocked list which my ex and his family and friends are on, I quickly glanced at their little profile pics to make sure they were okay and that they weren’t planning on scheming to harm me and my family and my fiancé. Immediately after I did this I started to freak out, my OCD made me think I was a cheater and that I secretly want to reach out to this ex. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD from that situation because I went through a traumatic experience with this individual and this is what had lead me to believe that he will harm me. Anyone else experience similar?

feelinalone.

Date posted: 23w

i’m so anxious right now.

i had thoughts of “planning” to harm my boyfriend. we have a trip coming up and my intrusive thoughts were telling me “nobody will know if you harm him all the way over there”, then my mind started rambling on like “everyone will know-“ and so on and so forth, it actually made me feel like i was contemplating on doing something and now it feels like im turning evil ): has anyone had thoughts like this?

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