- Date posted
- 1y
Harm Ocd Episode?
So i haven’t had an episode like this in a while. i’ve never actually been diagnosed with harm ocd so im even more terrified. I watched a news story a few years ago about a man who killed his wife by suffocating her and hid her body. well a few weeks ago i seen the same video on TikTok. since then ive had thoughts about killing my boyfriend in the same way. we don’t live together yet and we aren’t engaged but i don’t know why i would think like this. because i had a thought like this does it mean that im planning to do it? i don’t want to do it. i want to spend the rest of my life with him but this makes me want to run. makes me want to not marry him and never move in with him. i don’t want to alone with him because im scared ill do something to harm him. i have a huge lump in my throat and i feel like i secretly want to do it but i know in my heart that i dont. what do i do? i’m freaking out.