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When is your OCD at its worst?
Like, a specific time? I find mornings a struggle. I'm usually a lot better by afternoon. But the first 2-3 hours in the morning, it's just relentless.
Like, a specific time? I find mornings a struggle. I'm usually a lot better by afternoon. But the first 2-3 hours in the morning, it's just relentless.
I'm SO surprised it hasn't impacted my sleep as I read a lot of people struggle. But mornings are 100% the worst. I get about 10 seconds freedom when opening my eyes, then OCD is like "Moooorning".
It’s worse for me when I am on trips and/or stressed
Any time, I am alone.
Or tired!!
Mornings mostly for me
At nighttime for sure :( maybe it’s when I’m tired and have time to ruminate
Oh, yes, if I've had a bad sleep, it'll hit me with more force. 🤯
At night sadly :(
The stress hormone cortisol is what wakes us up and our ocd brains will naturally be more triggered. Your ocd will ask why are you stressed regardless of how the body naturally worked and then kick in. Also, if you have not done enough to deal with stressors during the day to put your mind at ease, at night ocd can kick in when you're trying to sleep no matter how tired you feel.
Ah, thank you. That's actually informative and makes a lot of sense. But I always wondered why it was worse in the morning, I literally couldn't put my finger on it. Considering laying in bed, I have very little "triggers" to provoke it.
@djkaz Stress is a trigger and we are literally stressed awake every morning by cortisol that builds up when we sleep😂
@Wolfram There's definitely some irony. Aha.
I see a lot of stuff that needs doing, and I’m overwhelmed. Can’t concentrate. All the while I invision c
I wake up with ideas of what would make my space happier. I have envisioned my creative side. And might start, can’t seem to get back to what my creative side. Then i get out of bed. What I see overwhelming things to do. Can’t concentrate it’s to much. Cant seem to get started after i get out of bed
Before a first date lol
Day time for me if i am stressed doesn’t help.
So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
I always feel the most anxiety and dread in the morning. That’s when I start overthinking a lot, and it becomes really hard not to seek reassurance on the internet and so on. What do you all do to ease the morning anxiety a bit?
One of my first memories of OCD was from when I was about 8-12 years old. I’ve always struggled with sleeping and prone to twisting and turning due to my brain going like 🧠 🗣️🗣️🗣️ Anyways once I couldn’t sleep and got out of bed one of my parents said, with compassion, ”oh it’s so late, why are you awake it’s school tomorrow” and when they followed me to my room I saw that the time was 22:22 and I felt a really scary feeling in my chest (today I know it was anxiety) and from that day on the time 22:22 🕰️ followed me for years. I was twisting and turning and feeling anxious about my digital clock (I’m a 90s girly) turning 22:22. I could get issues taking deep breaths, being sweaty, uncomfortable and scared and feeling like ”ITS SOON 22:22 AND WHEN THE TIME PASSES IT WILL BE TOO LATE”. I never really understood exactly what was going to be ”too late” but I’m guessing it was getting too little sleep absolutely blown out of proportion. As soon it passed 22:22 it was all good and I could fall asleep 😴 I don’t struggle with those numbers today instead I smile and feel compassionate towards little me. Still OCD sucks, I still struggle with sleep times to times and do have some magical thinking but the big difference is that I logically know that it’s not real even if it emotionally sometimes feel that way. Take care out there. If this made you feel less lonely, wanna share your first memories of OCD? ❤️
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