I have no idea what’s in my head

I tried talking to my mom and we did it on a phone call so it was even harder to get my point across but I don’t even know what my point was , the whole conversation was confusing and it seems like she thinks OCD can just be thought through and I was gonna share some of my thoughts with her but they’re so bad I don’t know what she’ll say or how she’ll treat me I feel like I literally have no one and that I deserve it and every night I’m crying cuz it hurts in my head to be in my head Like some of my thoughts are that I’m a p-file or that I’m gonna get graped if I don’t sleep on one side through out the night or maybe since I’m 16 I’m gonna drive into the highway when I get my license and it’s all very hard

bdads27

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

hey babe, ocd is very tough to talk about with people who don’t have it. a lot of people dont understand bc they don’t go through it and don’t think that ocd works the way it does. now i think it’s perfectly okay to talk about with your mom, but it’s important to set boundaries on your compulsions. ocd wants you to keep thinking it through, don’t let it. even for me talking to my mom can be a compulsions because she won’t know not to give reassurance or what that means. you do deserve to talk to people and open up, you don’t need to isolate to feel okay, ocd wants you to do that!

flippy15

Date posted: 1y

@bdads27 This disorder is beyond confusing. Like this is our brain how is there a lie monster in my head spitting out rapid fire lie thoughts I know aren’t true it just makes you feel so frustrated and you’re just to shake it off not give meaning and go on with your day . So unfair

bdads27

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@flippy15 i know some days are so tough and others are better or just tolerable. i’m still learning. but i think that the most important part of it is pushing through, even when those thoughts come. accepting ocd is a huge huge part of recovery and ultimately can dictate how we see ourselves with the disorder! don’t give up! we got this

flippy15

Date posted: 1y

@bdads27 I know but when these thoughts pop up you know are false but they keep happening and what they are saying is scary and makes you then question is it true even when you know it’s not

tayanominous

Date posted: 25w

Panic attack and guilty

Im so scared i wish my brain would send me in to derealisation, im 13 years old and my OCD honestly gives me the most disgusting thoughts I can’t take it anymore my head turns everything into a sexual thought and I can’t even look at my own mom anymore because of them they are really and honestly the most messed up thoughts I could ever think of and I’m so scared idk what to do, I’m on Prozac and going to start ERP soon but I’m still so insanely scared I have lost myself, I’m only just been diagnosed with ocd and don’t know everything abt it but just keep on panicking about everything😭😞😢

tayanominous

Date posted: 24w

I’m scared does anyone else have these thoughts?

TW!!!! TW! Not talking abt SOCD in talking abt those really gross intrusive thoughts about sexual things with family ,friends, animals, random people. Mine is with family specifically my mom and I am so scared and my OCD is saying I actually want these thoughts to happen irl. I’m scared and these thoughts aren’t just the average incest thoughts there are sooo messed up it crazy, a few weeks ago I gas a thought that I was pregnant with that family member I mentioned before and I know ewwwwww wtf it’s sooo bad and I’m scared ppl will judge me for it in here or my therapist I’m so scared and it keeps adding to this thought like what it would be like if that were true and it’s sounds so crazy and gross and f****d up I feel so guilty and scared and I don’t wanna do ERP cuz I’m scared worse thoughts will come and your probably think well I can’t get worse then that but unfortunately it probably could anyways I’m sorry for ranting and pls pls reply cuz I feel rlly alone cuz I feel like no one gets THESE thoughts aghhh 😖

avantika 🪻

Date posted: 19w

Lost

I had like a really bad argument with my mom basically about her complaining about my “attitude” and “constant arrogance” like okay firstly 😭 yes i do have an attitude and am irritable but im not THAT bad 😭🙏 she was saying that im a “pest” and that “its not enjoyable to live with someone who makes other people miserable” like 😅🧍‍♀️ oh ☺️ and then i tell her that i know im struggling and that im going to therapy to try to get better and trying to possibly get a diagnosis and she says “your generation just wants something to deal with. You want something to be wrong with you. ‘Trying to get better’ isn’t good enough… would you be able to stand someone like yourself? You’re just choosing this antisocial, narcissistic behaviour and harass everyone… You need to pull yourself together. No matter how much effort we put into you, you will never be happy. You want some medicine? Some diagnosis? Because that will solve everything?” 😭😭😭 and the way she said “some medication”- she sounded so disgusted and appalled and now i feel ashamed… i mean im not officially diagnosed with ocd and it is never my intention to self diagnose- but im sorry its VERY obvious when you have ocd and know of ocd- its so distinct. Everything- the compulsions, reassurance, intrusive thoughts, themes, patterns, perfectionism- but she has me overthinking- what if i dont have ocd 😭 and ive just been lying to myself and everyone maybe its not ocd and im just sick in the head or trying to self sabotage- and especially when my supposed ocd is calm or not as loud i get so anxious “what if i dont have ocd…”

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