Support system

I used to have a support person. He basically gave me a month after diagnosis to start showing improvement. Then started a fight. So for a week I haven't had him around to talk to him or tell him anything and it's an extreme struggle. I don't have family to help, I reconnected with an old friend I haven't seen since 2018 but have been friends with for 17 years. He's a very different person which is struggling to have as a support person. He has some good advice and no it's not always what I want to hear, but it just doesn't feel right. Sometimes it's overwhelming and annoying. So I basically have him and a therapist every week. I'm still learning, still researching/reading, still trying to figure out what's right for me, what is going to help me. I don't have any real good answers for me, the questions are overwhelming, trying to figure a starting point is overwhelming and so much anxiety that I don't want to. I've tried setting boundaries and that's blowing up in my face. I'm upset, frustrated and angry so much that hate is building in my heart. Being at work for 10 hours is my hardest part. I can't walk, I can't meditate, I listen to music, write when I can, I try to let the intrusive thoughts be acknowledged and let go and focus some on something else. I guess today is just extremely harder. Monday I am getting on medication for the jump start to getting more help and I'll be back in my therapist office on Tuesday. So I just need to get through the next few days. Possibly with lots of long walks and meditation. I'll be searching for support groups to see if there is one near me, maybe I'll meet someone I can connect really well with that will be my new support person, someone who won't give up when the bad days are really bad.