Therapy realizations

Being super anxious that family or friends were mad at me with little or no evidence

Debilitating, constant guilt from replaying of events in the past, questioning how good or bad of a person I am on a daily basis

Ruminating.

Rumination, mental checking, body checking, mental rituals

Ruminating and avoiding. I used to think I was SO smart for being able to identify every possible risk associated with ANYTHING. Now I realize I was just making myself miserable!

Uh all of them. Depression and anxiety from the non stop looping. Oh and thinking I'm lying all the time as in " I don't really have OCD, I'm making it all up and I'm lying I really have something else. That one thing caused me to take two weeks till I accepted I did have OCD, even though I knew I had OCD.

Skin picking!

Bringing up resolved conflicts with girlfriend and friends to make sure everything was okay

Speaking reassurance from others (sometimes strangers)

Looking for worst case scenario outcomes, especially in health situations of people I love

People pleasing

the time i spent feeding into my thoughts by trying to reassure myself that i didn’t want the thoughts

Ruminating!!!

Rumination. BIG TIME.

Giving meaning to an irrational thought along with ruminating and trying to outrun the thought.

Ruminating, catastrophizing and mental checking. Okay, that’s three…but I had no idea how badly they were impacting my life before ERP!

Listing every physical symptom to friends family and anyone who would listen just to get reassurance !

RUMINATION GOOD LORD!!! Still catching myself doing it but so so grateful for the knowledge of it now 🙌🏻🙌🏻

Rarely feeling safe and secure.

That i lived in constant stress and anxiety i didn’t know what life without it was like. It felt “normal” to be in it as opposed to not. My shoulders were always shrugged and my head hunched.

Thought replacing

Skin picking, ruminating, over apologizing, over confessing. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I didn’t realize how much I disliked myself!

The idea that someone was contaminating me with their energy

Anticipatory anxiety (ruminating)!

the immediate down spiral one small thing can send me into

Rumination and doubt

Obsessing over my morality

So much rumination. Mental checking. Physical checking. Talking with others about my thoughts over and over again. Feeling a need to confess.

Over responsibility and guilt!

Sneaky compulsions that I didn’t realize were compulsions!

ruminating and constantly replaying moments and conversations in my head until I felt better

Reassuring myself, rumination

Reassurance, confessing, repeating a script I had to memorize her and over before I could do anything else.

My imposter syndrome

Ruminating, feeling like a bad person all the time, feeling like everyone hates me, constantly trying to predict other people’s behaviors & opinions & how situations will unfold, worrying about the future

Ruminating

Confessing and storytelling.

How terrified I am that something bad will happen

Being super anxious around people and being hyperaware of my every move

Not knowing if I’m feeling physical symptoms or I made them up and they’re psychosomatic

when i was a little kid, i was scared that my mom was replaced by an alien?? so i made some password between us so i could tell if she was human lol. I was like six at the time. if she didn’t say the password i freaked out 💀💀💀

Besides the ones that a lot of people have mentioned, recently it has been realizing my superstitions are more so OCD related. Like for example that if I were to intentionally kill a bee it wouldn’t affect the odds of another bee stinging me (because it would break my agreed upon pact with the bees) Hello Magical Thinking!

Reverse rumination

Distraction as a means of not focusing on my thoughts.

Saying no to a thought.

Rereading the same email for an hour to make sure there's nothing wrong with it, be it misspelling or somehow attached a private photo or accidently called my boss stupid.

Ruminating!!

People pleasing

Needing to make sure people understand what I’m saying in a conflict

Feeling guilty

I just found out this week a compulsion of mine is ruminating. I had no idea it was making me more anxious and that there was even a term for it. It seriously has changed my whole outlook on OCD and how to manage it!

Ruminating and checking feelings and thoughts

I constantly used reddit as an outlet to soothe my compulsions, almost every time I had an intrusive thought especially when it came to my relationship i immediately searched it up on reddit for reassurance only to be met with horrible truths, and then believing the truths causing me even more harm, leading to me searching up other questions to get reassurance, constant negative thoughts, the same thoughts, it's just upsetting.

Ruminating

Ruminating

I didnt realize I was compulsively avoiding my oven. I thought I had completely rational reasons to think my oven would explode if I used it

Constant shame and guilt

Rumination!

Racing thoughts!

Confessing! I didn't know it wasn't healthy to tell people things, especially since the issues we talk about are often times way bigger than they seem. The reassurance you get temporarily and the guilt you let go of only lasts for a little before you have another problem on your hands

I have that one too

Planning ahead! I still remember the "ah-ha" moment I had when I realized that always planning ahead for what to do if I had a panic attack was a compulsion keeping my brain stuck in the OCD cycle. I remember I had no idea, I was in a support group with Tia Wilson, that was a real turning point for me.

Rumination too, it just isn't healthy or helpful at all.

Constantly confessing to my partner that I was afraid I didn’t “feel right” or “feel enough”