Germs???

I never had much of a problem with germs and stuff when I was younger but after co-opting in a elementary school and working at a nursing home I’m overly sensitive to germs now and for 1. Am wondering if OCD can effects this or is this is even OCD 2. Is a story how I was out with friends and we went to the lake and I got water it my mouth but when I was a kid I would go so far as to open my eyes in the water without a care but this occasion and lately it’s been gotten worse to the point I want to cut open my skin to pour bleach and soap and antibacterial spray inside me or drink it to get the germs and bacteria and parasites or human piss and vomit it decomposed body cuz who knows what happens in a lake. I thankfully didn’t and talked with one of my friends there who has OCD and she said all this was OCD but I truly wonder if it is since I wasn’t like this before????

AugustDean

Date posted: 1y

I've had a similar situation. When I was younger, I used to dig in the dirt, going to crawdads, and never washed my hands. Now, I wash my hands anytime I touch anything, I refuse to touch things that haven't been wiped down, and I always have hand sanitizer on me. Sometimes I feel like there's a residue of germs on my hands or I panic if I touch something 'contaminated' and I don't have access to washing my hands. Now, it can be less serious or more serious, it's still very likely OCD. My "Oh no! Germs!" awakening was randomish. I was 7, walking in Walmart with my mum and was pushing the cart. I looked around and saw the amount of people pushing carts and started thinking about how many people don't wash their hands or are just careless with what they've touched, and go to touch the handles. All the sudden, I was mortified by the fact that my hands had been on this cart handle. It is actually very common for the paranoia of germs to be an OCD thing. In fact, in a lot of tests that you can take for OCD, it's a common question of a mentioning on how you react/feel with germs.

Kat_Griffith

Date posted: 1y

@AugustDean Thanks you very much for giving me a ‘your life example’ that’s helps me understand a lot better. I even have that Walmart cart thing to. I can feel it getting worse tho, like, I opened public bathroom stalls and all I had to do was intensely wash my hand and strategically open the bathroom door with my back but now I use my sleeve for everything and still wash my hands and when I get home I change all my clothes

AugustDean

Date posted: 1y

@Kat_Griffith Of course, I'm glad if I can help in anyway. If it's getting to the point that it may bother you or it's starting to concern you in anyway, if you're unable to purchase therapy or self helping books, you may look into ways to help with that online. Specify that's it's a compulsion. Unfortunately, a lot of things that help is more exposure, which feels impossible and terrifying. I suffer most from a kind of phobia of things running out. I never finish sketchbooks, songs, foods, etc. because it gives me a feeling of existential dread and it's exhausting. It results in panic attacks so often but it's becoming so bad that I'm going to have to do something about it really soon, and the best thing I can really do about it right now is expose myself to it more. I'm probably going to have to start by letting my phone die, or finishing a song, or eating a full meal. Man, I am terrified. I've been procrastinating so bad. I promise this isn't me trying to get pity, this is me trying to be like, "I get it. It sucks. I feel ya, but I promise you're not alone. You got this! We can do this together" So if it ever feels like it's going too far, don't panic, you got this. It'll be okay

victoriaE

Date posted: 1y

OCD as I know it is only in the mind because it controlls us. Wr let it control.

Kat_Griffith

Date posted: 1y

@victoriaE Wait so what I explained wasn’t OCD

AugustDean

Date posted: 1y

@Kat_Griffith It most certainly is OCD

samlovesjesus

Date posted: 25w

how do i know if i have OCD?

so this all started not too long ago, for literally no reason at all. but one day i got a random intrusive thought about harming others and it freaked me out bad. since then i’ve been non stop focusing on it and im genuinely scared that i am, or gonna end up like those sick people that have documentaries about them. i’ve never had these types of thoughts before and after me and my mom looked a lot of stuff up we think i have OCD cuz a lot of the stuff it was saying was accurate to me. to anyone in here, does this sound like OCD to you? i’ve always been a nice loving person and these thoughts freak me out so bad and make me feel like i’m a bad gross person. it got to the point i don’t even like looking at myself anymore. i just wanna go back to normal man. another thing to add, when i would explain this to my mom even though i was telling the full truth on how crappy this made me feel it felt like i was lying almost? but i know i wasn’t deep down. i’m just scared that what if i act on something or get in my head too much you know?

geodrimilis

Date posted: 24w

Can I be born with ocd?

So basically I didn’t know till my hocd started. But looking back at my life I had ocd since I was a kid. Like 6-7 years old. First time happening I remember that when I was doing stuff many times I had to say something like a little poem in my head to stop it. Then I had this thing were if I felt my left foot touch the floor 5 times I had to do the touch the floor with my right foot too. Then I had something I guess contamination??? Basically after washing my hands I had a sensation on my hand like I could still “feel” the germs and I had to wash them again. Then I started having thoughts of my family members getting hurt. I had intrusive thoughts about me hurting my dog. Then I had this obsession that a guy who used to be in my school is looking for me to beat me up. And how it’s this obsession about my sexuality even tho I never doubted or questioned it before. Is that possible??? Like can you be born with it? I’m pretty sure both my parents have it too. At least at some level. Take my father for example he had an obsession that he was going to die the moment he turned 30.

kesi

Date posted: 23w

Emetophobia/OCD

This has recently developed into something much bigger than it originally was. When this past winter season started, i noticed more people were getting the stomach bug than usual. I was fine at first, until I was noticing almost one person in every class was saying they recently had it. I researched about it, and I found what I was looking for unfortunately. Norovirus cases were surging across the U.S because of a new strain of NoV that recently had been spreading. This immediately altered my way of thinking. Everywhere I went, I would be overly cautious of what’s around me and whose around me. The first obsessive compulsive problem I had was that I couldn’t eat at lunch anymore unless I washed my hands. One time, I didn’t have an option to wash my hands, so I didn’t eat lunch. That’s when I knew it was interfering with my daily life, and it was becoming a serious issue. There was another time where some guy threw up near me in the hallway trash can. My mind was spiraling. all. day. long. It felt like it was consuming me alive. Not a minute would go by where I wouldn’t think about it, and the high possibility of me catching this virus. There’s been so many other scenarios where I feel myself losing it. I’m not the best of explaining in detail how my mind feels when it spirals, but the best thing I could say is that I could feel myself slowly losing my mind. It takes over my life. I HAVE to act on my compulsive acts, if not, i’ll have these obsessive thoughts until it consumes me whole. I’ve had nervous breakdowns, panic attacks, anxiety attacks, insomnia, and it almost feels like it’s causing me to have an eating disorder. Most recently, I went to use the bathroom and saw what looked like puke on the toilet seat. I was already using it, so I just finished my buisness and rushed out there asap. I figured, if I fasted for two days, what’s there to puke if I do catch NoV? So, I did. I missed school because on the second day of fasting, I became very dehydrated. I was weak, and couldn’t move. I realized what this all rooted back to. That’s when I knew I needed help.

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