Madina is a phenomenal therapist! I recently finished my discharge session, and I can say, without a doubt, that working with Madina has drastically improved my quality of life! I have become more comfortable with uncertainty, imperfection, and the unknown. She pushed me outside my comfort zone, which is exactly what I needed!

@More Than A Conqueror_913 Out of curiosity, did she say if she had ocd or if she’s both a therapist and had it?

@cam.cam Hi! As far as I know she doesn’t have OCD. But she does a heck of a job at helping to conquer it. She’s direct but very sweet and even fun!

@More Than A Conqueror_913 I see you had suicidal ocd as well. I am struggling with that theme a lot right now. Feeling like I won’t make it (not in a suicidal way though) just a terrible feeling that won’t go away. Any advice?

@cam.cam @cam.cam It definitely sucks! To go from not ever feeling that way to dealing with the uncertainty of it. It was more so me being afraid that I would give up and in giving up that I may want to commit suicide. It sucks because that’s not how I feel at all. But OCD wants certainty in an attempt to almost try and protect us from everything it perceives to be a threat. And in most cases, there is no threat. I literally had to sit with the uncertainty that I may give up and in giving up, I may or may not commit suicide. It doesn’t feel good but over time I’ve been able to allow those types of thoughts to fade into the background. They still pop up here and there and I let them be. Sometimes I don’t do anything with them but say “ok.” Sometimes I may give in and actually came myself ruminating and then I make myself stop and focus on something I really want to be doing. My therapist and I also did exposures based around that theme. I wrote an obituary and read it a loud, I wrote a suicide note and challenged myself to read it out loud, I wrote scripts around what it would look like for me to give up, what head space I was in, etc. I watched videos on people who had committed suicide and their families were speaking on their behalf or those who attempted suicide, if a suicide scene came up in a movie or show I would watch it, etc. I pray that you conquer this subtype and any others that may come your way. It’s uncomfortable when a new theme surfaces but as hard as it feels, we can handle it. We are already facing it. And with each day we get a bit stronger. OCD lies A LOT!! We live in a world full of uncertainty and a lot of gray areas and OCD wants black and white; not possible. When it challenges me, I challenge it back. And when we challenge it, it gets smaller and smaller. So keep doing the hard work. Your journey isn’t going to be perfect. Mine surely isn’t as recovery isn’t linear. But you can do this!! You’re already doing it by seeking help. I’m proud of you 💕

@More Than A Conqueror_913 Thank you for the kind words. It’s so scary to think giving up is a choice in this world. I wish it wasn’t. Are you generally happy now? Do you think about life every day?