please help.

@Iamstrong2024! thank you so much! 🩷

Don't do that. But if you do and don't feel guilty, that doesn't matter because you do this with an intention to TEST yourself, not with the intentions of cheating. Also you're CHOOSING to stay and act faithful, thats what all matters. Say "i don't care" or "maybe or maybe not", thats an exposure technique!

@walkingocd thank you, and yes sometimes i go through these like times where i wont get any response to the thoughts, when it first happened i was sobbing to my boyfriend at the idea of loving or liking anyone else made me so sick i puked because leaving him to persuade someone else was absolutely horrible to me. and now the guys name is just on repeat. i get intrusive thoughts about everyone under the sun. but this specific guy just tears me up the most. like no other, i dont even think i wanted him from the start, me and him talked off and on for 4 months like two weeks or less in contact then a couple out and then lost contact for 6 months then stayed in contact for a little from april to may? but i never took him seriously? i just wanted him to say good things about me. and give me everything in a relationship but not? like the attention you get from it? and id also feel so guilty because it was wrong bc of our past. i always got him in some wrong horrible way. idk if thats even romantic feelings or just like a false crush? what do you think? and when me and him did talk in april- may that was after i met my current bf but we was no contact and i always complained how he wasnt him?

@walkingocd and also his name is just like on repeat. idk if i mentioned that? but i never really thought about mine and his past til this honestly

@supersillykitty14 LOL SAAMEEEEEE, I always had the specific persons name on repeat, especially when i was praying for my ex. I had their name on my mind all day everyday. OCD doing its job. You can call it whatever you like, false attraction, false feelings or false crush. It is FALSE after all. Its not real. No matter what you feel, what thoughts you have, choose your partner. Choose to love your partner. Choose to stay faithful to them. Even if you feel like yoh love someone else, you don't want to choose it, you hate ur partner, etc. Choose it. You have choices. Ocd can dominate your mind but it can't manipulate your reality.

@supersillykitty14 Yeah you said that, you're too exhausted that your forgetting things. Get some rest when you feel better

@walkingocd it drives me actually crazy, because i’ll be going to say anyones name then BOOM his name. like no thanks!! so but how do i know the difference between genuine romantic feelings and false? like there was enjoyable moments in the past, for the attention.. but i think you can tell the dominant emotions were usually negative, because homewrecking,feeling bad, anxiety, always worried of people hating me. when me and him did date i felt so uncomfortable and so just idk gross? like i didnt belong there. it was so weird. hes not even good looking either💔 and he has those weird personalities.. like a pick me boy 🙁 its literally my biggest regret.

@supersillykitty14 Lol its okay, you're trying to prove things to yourself. Calm down please. Its all OCD, trust me. You're faithful. Your false or negative feelings can shadow your love and good feelings because every living has their survival thing on their brain. And brain focuses on the "danger" first to stay alive and survive, it tries to handle and solve the problem. Brain works a lil silly but its fine. i exprienced every single thing you just write here. I get and understand you. Please calm down

@walkingocd okay, but how do i know the difference between genuine and false crushes? and stuff. because not in a relationship id literally act on any thought ever

@walkingocd and thank you for listening to this, but i think another part that drives me insane is that my mind tries to save my current boyfriend looks like this guy. simply if they have the same eyebrow shape or anything… its insane

@supersillykitty14 You don't have to distinguish whats real and whats not. Love doesn't has to be an emotion. It is a choice more than a feeling. You love who you choose to be with. But if you want the answer so bad, false feelings brings distress and guilth within

@supersillykitty14 Also exprienced that. Its horrible. But when you actually see your boyfriend, nothing of him looks like someone. He is unique. Your mind, OCD just trying to find a weak point of yours and hyper focuses and distorts your reality.

@walkingocd so what im going through with the other guy? thats not my boyfriend?

@supersillykitty14 It could be an intimidation or friendly closeness. Nothing more. OCD is just exaggerating because this person triggers you

@walkingocd like what do you mean? im sorry im so slow

@supersillykitty14 Its okay! I mean, This may be an excitement felt by friends. It could be sincerity. Or it could be intimidation. Or, like me, you don't actually feel anything and it's just the exaggerated fake emotions of OCD. (Like u feel like you have a crush but in reality, you don't)

@walkingocd YES ITS LIKE A CRUSH BUT NOT? ITS LIKE UH IF ADRENALINE YOU GOT FROM EXCITING THINGS WAS JUST SYPER NEGATIVE If that makes sense?? like u hate the feelings??, also my mind has gave me this really big fear of him and his girlfriend breaking up… and i have no idea why.. but it like scares me

@supersillykitty14 OMG YES FINALLY SOMEONE UNDERSTANDS ME.... OMGMGMGMGM I NEVER THOUGHT SOMEONE HAD THE SAME TRIGGER FEELINGS trigger feelings can be different. Some people can feel guilt, people like me feels a thing that is like excitment, its like you have a crush. Like you described. OMGGG IM SO HAPPY IM NOT ALONE. Also trigger reactions can be different. Some ppl can cry. But i reluctantly smile and this is even more triggerring because what if i actually enjoy? But no its a reaction.

@walkingocd omg sometimes i get comfort??? and i literally HATE IT. and Sometimes my mind convinces me That its a crush Because before this ocd stuff i used to be like an attention whore.. but OMG sometimes it feels like my throat feels like Idk weird?? but The idea of them breaking up, literally tears me up, and i have absolutely no idea why… like, i absolutely do not want them to.. because i tell myself id act on it? when i know i wouldnt. but my mind makes me uncertain when literally when he was single i acted on it, but only when i was single… and bored.. and all this started when i was with my current boyfriend… no other guy.. idk why i fear them breaking up..

@supersillykitty14 SAME, that is called false crush. And also i had the "what if my they broke up, what would i feel?" And so many thoughts related to this. I get you trust me 😭😭😭 this is all OCD

@walkingocd False comfort*** excuse my typo i got excited

@walkingocd ME BEING SCARED OF THEM BREAKING UP IS HAVING A FALSE CRUSH?? i think ive always had js a false crush off and on with him 🙁

@supersillykitty14 No thats not false crush, and i meant false comfort on you feeling comfort. Thats intrusive scenario, what if thought examples.

@walkingocd ohh okayy, but i think my mind is just making a bigger deal than it is.. if they did break up, i think absolutely nothing would happen. but i do think ive just had a false crush for him off and on, hence the homewrecking, never wanting anything serious, js the attention? but feeling horrible abt it yk

@walkingocd and this sounds horribleee, im friends with his cousin… and kike she was saying sum story and i was like “i wish i was related to him so i could be around him 24/7” LIKE NOO. i have said i wish me n him was related so i would have never spoke to him like that. and he was js a normal person in my life.

@supersillykitty14 Typhical OCD. OCD is the one who wants attention, not you

@supersillykitty14 I exprienced this as well. It might be false crush. Mine was it. I hope this helps. If you need more help i can give u my socials

@walkingocd yes sure! but like also when i hear his name i get this spike of anxiety in my chest? like really fast! but i think its a false crush honestly.. in the past i thought i was literally in love with everyone.. when i wasnt😔

@supersillykitty14 This is not false crush actually. Its only the feeling of trigger. I feel that towards to everyone. Especially specific people

@walkingocd omgg, i meant in the pastt 😔 idk what it is specifically now with ocd

@walkingocd but yes, what are your socials

@supersillykitty14 İnstagram : endoplazmikfetikulum

@walkingocd i cant msg you unless you follow me☹️

@supersillykitty14 Oh sorry let me check it