It’s hard to be in the moment

Recently I’ve been finding it really hard to enjoy moments with my family because I am so worried about them all the time. When I’m with them it’s great and I love spending time with them but I can’t help but worry about all the things that could happen to them at any given moment. These feelings started becoming much stronger after I lost both my grandparents a couple years ago. I have never experienced that kind of grief before. I constantly am thinking about how I am so scared for when they die and I have a hard time accepting that the people I love won’t be around forever. Im scared I won’t survive on my own without them because they are so important to me I worry I will be consumed with the grief. And it’s not like my parents are old and withered they are still relatively young. It’s really distressing to feel that way about family all the time. I don’t think it’s normal to be thinking about this as often as I do but I guess that’s why I am here lol. Anyone else relate?

Username: Courage2ContinueCourage2Cont...

Date posted: 22w ago

Yeah, I get this! I actually really hate hospitals because of this. I remember when I was little going and visiting my grandma who was getting chemo, and now I associate hospitals with death, and I feel like I’m bad luck to the people there, because when I go to visit, the people I visit tend to get worse. Ever since then, I worry about everyone’s health all the time, even very healthy family members and friends, and it’s exhausting!

Username: Keeps TryingKeeps Trying

Date posted: 22w ago

I can definitely relate. Some of my fears are both getting someone sick, or getting sick myself (and then not getting care and dying alone). Anyways, I’ve just spent three weeks with family. My parents are older, my nieces and nephews are little. It’s important to me that we spend time together so I work through my fears. Yesterday my dad got really sick with a recurring cough that quickly becomes bronchitis or pneumonia. I said, “what are we going to do?” And he replied, “cremate me.” I told him it wasn’t a funny joke and then he responded that he wasn’t joking. It simultaneously broke my heart and yanked me into fear mode. Then I was talking to my mom and she said, “I think your dad is going to die from this recurring cough.” By that time I couldnt hold back the tears. I took a long bath and let myself sleep in after a restless night of sleep. I think the best I’ve been able to come up with as ERP is: “I don’t know how things will turn out. He will die sometime, but I don’t know when or why.” It’s HARD!

Username: alexsitiaalexsitia

Date posted: 22w ago

@Keeps Trying That is heartbreaking. Thank you for sharing that. It meant a lot to read it

Username: wannabeokay

Date posted: 4y ago

I believe I have undiagnosed OCD but was wondering if anyone else goes through this struggle. I constantly think of ways my loved ones might die. Whether that be from an event happening or a situation I am in with them and I am afraid to leave them in fear that they will die and I will be left alone. For example, I could be indoors with my family and they all go outside without me. I immediately imagine a tornado coming up, knocking over a tree and killing my family with me left to survive. Or I think of certain scenarios where a disease (especially with Covid-19 going around) could infect a loved one and my mind creates vivid images of how they could die of the disease. Does anyone else experience this? How do you cope?

Username: OCDstephie

Date posted: 3y ago

Really struggling with the idea of death, scares the shit out of me. My OCD has really clung to this and all I can think about is my Loved ones are going to die one day and so am I. I’m flooded with so many emotions ranging from fear to guilt. It’s gotten to the point where the thought of death is always in the back of my mind 24/7. I’ve been having nightmares about it now and will wake up in a full blown panic. Anyone deal with something like this? And any tips to move past this?

Username: 0045

Date posted: 1y ago

imagining loved ones dying

i don’t know if this falls under a specific theme or is even related to ocd. if someone could help me out i would really appreciate it ever since i was younger, i’ve had really upsetting thoughts about losing my loved ones and it would get to a point where i vividly imagine their death scenes play out in my head and it’s started to effect me during a day-to-day basis. sometimes i even imagine myself dying and the imagery shows me how my friends and family react to my passing usually when i think of something happy, my brain enters this cycle where i begin to think of some upsetting and distressing moment and i cant help but think about it for the rest of the day i’ve had a common fear of death for a really long time, but it’s gotten really bad now is this a form of some intrusive thought? please let me know what you think

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