harm ocd??

@Nancyyaa for real im so scared

@Nancyyaa For me it’s vivid images of hurting my mom because I’m very close to her like I love her so much I would never ever do such a thing. The thing that scares me the most is getting those urges like what if the urges makes me do it and I don’t notice it.

@Nancyyaa why do the urges feel so real.. its making me feel like im a killer. i made my grandma hide all the knives.

@shrimpeasy One thing I’ve learned is that harm ocd or at least what I think I am because I’ve been doing research. So basically ocd tends to attack towards those you love the most because it knows your vulnerable to them. I’ve been feeling like this for the past 3 months I’d say it all started out of no where when I was sitting with my mom and out of no where my whole body started to feel like hot, and then the sudden vivid images and thoughts came in like st*ab her or punch her I was so so scared for the following days and weeks. Til this day some days is there and others it’s not but I hate it when you get it and you get the urges to do it. Even tho you don’t want to it feels like you have to in order to feel better but giving in to your urges will only make things worse. I don’t know nothing about it just what I’ve heard I’m thinking to start therapy soon sometimes I feel like I might lose myself or lose control but those are thoughts that ocd gives you too I’ve also had anxiety ever since I was like 15 I’m currently 22

@Nancyyaa you almost explained exactly what im going through 😭

@shrimpeasy Just know you’re not alone in this, and I know how hard it is too. One thing I always tell myself when having these thoughts or urges is “okay and I will probably just do it” instead of giving it too much thought I noticed it makes it worse when you feed it your attention and I know it sounds easy but it’s not. The reason why we fear these thoughts of killing is because we don’t want to do it. That should already put you at ease a little that you’re scared to do it because you don’t want to. Those who kill don’t even think they just do it. I hope this helps I’m still learning new things everyday. 🩷

@Nancyyaa but i have this tense feeling in my hands that feels like i already am or need to be holding a knife.. i dont know if thats part of ocd or theres actually something sickly wrong with me

@shrimpeasy Can you elaborate more on the feeling?

@Nancyyaa i don’t really know how to explain it, my hands get warm and tingly and they start to feel like im already holding a knife

@shrimpeasy The “warm and tingly” is associated with anxiety or like when we get a panic attack those are some of the symptoms or simply when your scared your body responds in this way. But I don’t really understand the part where your saying “already holding a knife” like is it because your imagining it? For me it’s more like vivid images of hurting someone and it makes me horrified of it.

@Nancyyaa Wait does the ocd ever make u feel like ur gonna actually do it ? Because my brain told me I was gonna actually do it I’m currently so scared pls help

@F.A no, the thoughts came out of nowhere and they’re scaring me