When you had your first false memory experience did you think it was real because you didn’t know ocd could do that or did you feel like something didn’t feel right about it and suspect it was ocd?
For me, my false memories began as less imaginations and more so my inability to accurate recall an event and, most importantly, my INTENTIONS in that moment. I began questioning everything I’ve done and whether I did things in good faith or not. I could not look back at a memory without questioning parts of it. I became my own gaslighter. Which is how intrusive thoughts affect us, so I definitely can see the connection between false memories and OCD. I did not know at the time what I was experiencing though, because I didn’t even know what OCD was. But I DID know I was terribly, terribly paranoid.
I had no idea it was ocd or that I even had it. It scared the crap out of me and it still does. It was only after researching “can you do something and block it out” did I come across false memory ocd
I didn’t know it was ocd. I didn’t know that I had ocd. The particular thought stuck with me for months and months, and even though it made no sense, the shame and guilt felt like something I could never get past. After watching a ton of the NOCD q&a steams on YouTube, getting my diagnosis, and doing a couple months of erp, I’m doing significantly better and it’s much easier to identify “ocd” thoughts and not ruminate on them.
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
I don’t know how to deal with the thoughts that come and barely gone. Usually, the brain often remembers and forgets things. People with OCD however struggle with trying to forget the intrusive thoughts because of the imbalance trying to convey what is real and if the thoughts in your head will come true. Just for the past few days, I was having fun and suddenly hit with a wave of obsessive thoughts and making me stuck with nowhere to go.
Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.
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