Trigger Warning: stomach stickiness, vomit scare

i have been sick for a while now (well over two weeks) and i don’t know what it is. my body stopped being able to hold food or drinks for very long, and it came out of nowhere. i’m sorry for the TMI, but i felt like after i drank even a sip of water i had to pee not even ten minutes later. and it wasn’t just “oh i have to pee”, it was like “if i don’t get to the bathroom rn i am going to pee myself right here”. much bigger TMI warning… the same went for foods; i’d eat and then hardly any time later it would all come right back out of the other end. as somebody who has dealt with ed’s in the past that lead me to sort of severe deficiencies in my body, this scared me. however, even more, with someone with strongly severe emetophobia (fear of vomit) this terrified me. i had no idea if the next step to this sickness was going to be vomit, and if vomiting was the next step, i had no clue when or where it would happen. this triggered my brain very easily to obsess. at the end of that first week, i had a strong, sharp, stabbing pain in my bladder and stomach above the bladder. it would get extremely tight no matter what i’d do, or how i moved, but it would be most intense if i had any sudden movements. sometimes, however, i’d just be sitting there and all of a sudden it would start stabbing me with sharp pains. - i thought maybe i had developed a very severe bladder infection. that went away after a few days and a week from it going away, i am here. almost every time i eat, i end up crying in a small ball over the pain. just tonight i was crying and terrified for hours because i was convinced i was going to vomit. it felt so convincingly like vomit in my stomach and i was trying everything to prevent it. finally, i tried taking pepto pills with some water. the water came right back up about half way through my swallow. i eventually tried oat milk which somehow worked like magic. not only could i swallow it, but i’ve also felt so much better after drinking it. however, i still obviously feel incredibly light headed whenever i sit up or stand up. i have no clue what any of this could be and i am afraid i will not be allowed to go to the doctor tomorrow unless it gets worse; i am honestly scared to even ask about going to the doctor. - i also know, however, if i don’t go to the doctor, my brain will never seem to stop obsessing over figuring out what it is that’s causing this to happen to me. i have a medical encyclopedia that i plan on searching through tomorrow to see if it helps me at all (assuming that’s better than dr. google). does anybody have any clue what this could be? or any tips on how to stop the obsessing? i am a sixteen year old if that helps any of this.

sleepygirl

Date posted: 1y

I understand you! I’ve been having a UTI for a few months now and I didn’t even know it was a UTI until I started peeing every like 20 mins or so. I would wake up in my sleep multiple times to go use the restroom causing me to be tired during the day😔 and so out of energy. You should definitely go to the doctor that way your mind can be in peace. I too did not wanna go to the doctor today bc I thought ny other issues that I’ve been dealing with weren’t a big deal and I kept going back and forth between should I go or should I not go. Thankfully nothing is severely wrong with me, just a uti and I’m getting antibiotics. Please if you’re able to go to the doctor that way you can calm down! but just remember that even if there’s is something medically wrong with you it can’t possibly be that horrible, and it’s most likely something that can be easily treated! Just remember to not go so deep into it and to not worry so much bc then it’s going to make you feel even more sick, I’ve been there MANY times to the point I start spiraling and think that whatever I have is severe. Also remember that anxiety also negatively affects your body. So just try to calm down first in a way that you know how to, and then collect your thoughts and tell yourself everything will be okay, and that whatever you have is treatable with medicine. Medicine is so advanced now compared to back then, most people would die by the age of 30 because there just wasn’t enough knowledge regarding medicine. So just breathe and close your eyes and try to find a calming zone. Everything will be okay don’t worry!

savannahframe19

Date posted: 25w

my OCD was doing better bro :(

tell me why… idk if this is just me but i’m so scared i have ovarian cancer, kidney stone, kidney failure, UTI, hernia, or something wrong that’s making my lower stomach to my inner thigh and pelvic area. i have an uncomfortable feeling. it was hurting more last night then it is today… everytime i pee it doesn’t hurt but i somewhat still get the uncomfortable feeling down there and feeling in stomach. i’ve been googling and idk what to do because i’m scared of the doctors and i haven’t had a physical like in 2 years and i’m like scared if i go to a physicial i will have something wrong with me like i have cancer or something that i don’t know about. something tells me the pain tho in general is something gastrointestinal related but idk if could mean i have pain down “there”…. i took a tylenol last night it helped a little but then it still kinda occurred and i took a tum and it’s still the same i think it’s still occurring since i’m so hyper focused about it. idk i’m just like ugh my OCD was doing so well i just can’t tell what it is or if something is wrong i’m just scared :( i hate when having certain pains i freak out.

its_izzy

Date posted: 24w

I think i need help…..

Idk whats going on…my mental state hasnt been great these past two weeks. My eating is being affected in a neg way due to transition between therapists, school, and ignoring my sexuality….Ive been taking several different kinds of quizzes over the past week regarding mental health and ED and i realized that if i dont eat enough to feel full i’ll end up sick or worse dead. It doesn’t help that i also just started my period. And i just woke up in the middle of the night with food, hydration, and possibly not waking up in mind. And tried going back to sleep but then i realized that I might actually have a problem on my hands and that jolted me awake. Now im scared of sleeping and not making it through the night….i could easily get up and make myself an oatmeal even though im not hungry atm, but dont wanna wake family that are sleeping in the living room. Im scared of dropping more weight than I already have been and having my nutritionist intervene…. Im realizing that im fucking myself up from not eating well and being too picky and i wanna slap a bandaid on it and just eat everything to hopefully gain some weight before my next nutrition appt. I’m just scared of things getting worse….is this part of OCD or is it just me just plain out ignoring my body cos in feeling like it??? Idk what to believe about myself anymore….

kesi

Date posted: 20w

Emetophobia/OCD

This has recently developed into something much bigger than it originally was. When this past winter season started, i noticed more people were getting the stomach bug than usual. I was fine at first, until I was noticing almost one person in every class was saying they recently had it. I researched about it, and I found what I was looking for unfortunately. Norovirus cases were surging across the U.S because of a new strain of NoV that recently had been spreading. This immediately altered my way of thinking. Everywhere I went, I would be overly cautious of what’s around me and whose around me. The first obsessive compulsive problem I had was that I couldn’t eat at lunch anymore unless I washed my hands. One time, I didn’t have an option to wash my hands, so I didn’t eat lunch. That’s when I knew it was interfering with my daily life, and it was becoming a serious issue. There was another time where some guy threw up near me in the hallway trash can. My mind was spiraling. all. day. long. It felt like it was consuming me alive. Not a minute would go by where I wouldn’t think about it, and the high possibility of me catching this virus. There’s been so many other scenarios where I feel myself losing it. I’m not the best of explaining in detail how my mind feels when it spirals, but the best thing I could say is that I could feel myself slowly losing my mind. It takes over my life. I HAVE to act on my compulsive acts, if not, i’ll have these obsessive thoughts until it consumes me whole. I’ve had nervous breakdowns, panic attacks, anxiety attacks, insomnia, and it almost feels like it’s causing me to have an eating disorder. Most recently, I went to use the bathroom and saw what looked like puke on the toilet seat. I was already using it, so I just finished my buisness and rushed out there asap. I figured, if I fasted for two days, what’s there to puke if I do catch NoV? So, I did. I missed school because on the second day of fasting, I became very dehydrated. I was weak, and couldn’t move. I realized what this all rooted back to. That’s when I knew I needed help.

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