I need advice

@SomaticSun🌤️ I had taken hydroxyzine, with duloxetine and I went through serotonin syndrome… at a concert it was horrible. They then wanted to put me on seroquil and desvenaflaxin and I was showing mild signs of serotonin syndrome. I’m so scared to go on a snri and ssris again. I know I need medication and I fight and fight to see my doctor, when she recommends me different medications I shut down and will not take the medication. I’m scared I’m going to go through that again or I’m gonna freak myself out and go through my breathing attacks again. I will have to look into ami, thank you. ❤️

@SomaticSun🌤️ Wdym killed you if you’re okay with sharing? I was thinking about considering Zoloft

@ysabelleveloz1 Oh, I just got so wild and scared on both of them, started seeing birds flying with psychedelic tails, started throwing up, lost my appetite for 3 days, couldn’t sleep. Felt like I was on speed. My body (and mind) just hate SSRI’s. Amitriptyline I believe is a tricyclic antidepressant. You can imagine how scared I was the first time trying it. I just feel kinda tired from it and it does mildly help with OCD. The first 2 weeks on it, I involuntarily kicked my legs while sleeping, but that goes away after a few weeks. Other than that, I guess you could say it “calms down” the part of the mind where OCD operates. And probably anxiety and depression. I’ve skipped a dose before.. big mistake. OCD comes back with a vengeance. If you do poorly with the SSRI’s, this might be the way to go. I’m on the lowest dose possible, and it helps. :)

@ashmariexiv Yeah, look into it. It works in a different way. A more calming way. 👍

@ysabelleveloz1 I have no idea, I remember as a kid always questioning how I’m here and how the color green is green.. etc. I used to have an addiction problem and I had this horrible trip on 🍄 .. which is I think where my breathing ocd came from. I was hyperventilating so bad nothing seemed real 4 of my friends had to hold me down to go to bed. I felt like that for 2-4 years after that? 2 years ago I left my toxic boyfriend and got into another relationship and he is awesome , he is so great. I felt as though I’ve been the happiest I’ve been. I was becoming more social, always wanting to go out, I was working my ass off at work I was just doing amazing. I then had this blood draw in April and almost passed out. I started feeling like I was gonna pass out anytime I got anxiety. I was hyperventilating for all throughout the day for weeks. I was in and out of er. Missing work because I was so scared, I needed to be perfect and act perfect in front of everybody and that freaked me out more. I don’t know if maybe the medication was working and my brain was going so fast for 2 months when I finally got out on a Benzo it just all caught up with me. I know dpdr is your brain “protecting” yourself but it sure as hell doesn’t feel like it.

@ashmariexiv I got mine from a bad weed experience 😩 it definitely could’ve been that 🍄 experience. Literally anytime I get anxious or a panic attack I get dpdr 10x worse. I’m always in depersonalized state but when I have panic attacks or anxiety attacks I get derealization. Have you went to therapy for that?

@ysabelleveloz1 I was a heavy weed smoker from 7th grade too my sophomore year after that 🍄 trip. I can’t smoke weed anymore, I feel like I’m dying. If I’m going through a panic attack I start hyper fixating on every part of my body to even know im depersonalizing. Once it goes away that’s when I feel disconnected which makes sense. And sometimes it’s my DPDR that triggers it.. it’s one or the other lol. What DPDR is , it’s your brain protecting itself and you from stressful events, trauma .. etc. it’s essentially a good thing even though it’s the worse feeling in the world. I am working through it with my counselor. I have been trying grounding techniques. You can take any object and focus on it. For an orange you can focus on the peel, the scents, how many slices. I went into Cabela’s with my boyfriend and I started to dissociate , started to get panicky, I just get repeating to myself that this is real life you are here, I tap a certain amount of times on my leg with my finger or I tap the floor with my foot , and that’s the only time I will let myself overthink the DPDR. I will intentionally do stupid things or be silly to distract myself from feeling like that.