night from hell.. HOW DO YOU COPE

i’m having such a terrible night. my day started off great. i went to the beach with a couple friends and was happy all day. it wasn’t until i was on my way home and anxiety over throwing up started to kick in. it hasn’t gone away since then and it got worse after being triggered by the possibility of getting sick from poor water quality. the beach i swam in was good equality but google says you can still get sick from it. then i was distracting myself, finally calming down when panic started to ensue. and this panic is unrelated however it’s making me nauseous, making my anxiety even worse. it came from me questioning if i was anxious or panicked over anything else after i was finally calming down and now i am. i can’t even explain how i’m feeling or what my mind is making me feel but it’s terrible. i would do anything for it to go away. i’m currently using my heating pad and have a cold pack on my neck, but it’s not working well. nothing sounds calming or is putting me at ease. and i don’t want to sit with it. i’m in fight or flight mode but there is not really anything i can to fix this immediately. HOW DO PEOPLE COPE WITH THIS?? i’m so tired of being in a constant state of anxiety or panic. it’s exhausting and i continue asking why it has to be me because that’s all i’ve felt for as long as i can remember. i’m so frustrated and CANNOT understand why i constantly have to feel like this all of the time. trying to cope literally feels against my nature because i feel like i’m in a state of imminent danger that i cannot rationalize in a way that will calm myself down. i just want this to end (i’m not suicidal). right now at this moment. i want all of the mental anguish and suffering to go away. i just want to live a day of peace. but what’s even worse is when i feel calm, it feels weird and uncomfortable. like being anxious and alert feels correct to me. it feels like a lose-lose situation. i’m about to cry because i’m so exhausted and frustrated. it’s either always something constant, new, or both. i never get a break. i appreciate anyone who took the time to read this, thank you 🫶🏻

ElanaIsStrug...

Date posted: 1y

Try some breathing excersizes and they will help reduce the panic a bit

alyssahans

Date posted: 1y

I’m sorry you’re going through this. I feel constant panic, fight or flight, pain, and anxiety ALL THE TIME. I can 10000000% relate to this. Just try to remember that if it feels urgent, it’s probably OCD. Keep in my that you do have OCD, so that probably means if you’re obsessing over something irrational like this, you’re spiraling into a severe compulsive episode. Remember to fight your OCD. You are NOT your OCD. Take deep breaths and talk yourself out of it. Ground yourself and come to reality. I know that OCD feels like reality so it’s hard, it’s like that for me too. I hate OCD. I don’t know how to cope and I’m tired of living like this too. It’s non stop, every second of every day.

flowerpetals

Date posted: 1y

@alyssahans thank you so much for this. i always appreciate those who let me know they’ve been there because it makes me feel less alone. i’m calming down a little but i’m worried about how fast my heart is beating and chest tightness. i know that’s pretty common and normal after experiencing hours of anxiety and panic but my mind is making me believe that there’s something wrong. i’m trying to not give into the panic however. but thank you for the advice! 🫶🏻

flowerpetals

Date posted: 24w

panic/anxiety attack

i’m currently experiencing a panicky anxiety attack and i don’t know why. i’ve been on edge all day because of being scared to get sick, but right now, i know i’m not going to get sick but i’m just really panicked and cannot calm down. i’m currently listening to music that helps relax me with an icepack on my neck to help, but not much is happening. my sister and mom keep coming into my room and it’s only making it worse but i don’t know why. i just don’t want to talk or be around anyone right now. these kinds of episodes are worse than any other because i don’t know why i’m so scared. it just feels like it’s never going to go away.

flowerpetals

Date posted: 22w

second anxiety wave

i’ve had pretty bad anxiety since about 10 tonight (it’s 2 am rn). i started really worrying because my head wouldn’t stop hurting even after i took a nap and two advil. then my stomach was hurting. then i took two more advil because my head kept going. then because i was worrying so bad i went into my mom’s room and she gave me a zofran. then i lied in there, watching the notebook to try and distract myself. and that started working and i started feeling better. but then i got hit with a second wave of anxiety, making me think i was gonna get sick even though i took a zofran. and i’m still dealing with it rn and can’t stop panicking. i have an ice pack on my neck to help alleviate the anxiety along with my heating pad and a movie playing on my computer. right now i’m freaking myself into having food poisoning. it just sucks when my nights are spent like this and i can’t get out of it.

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flowerpetals

Date posted: 13w

terrible anxiety

i’ve been doing okay lately. but then tonight, my stomach started hurting and obviously that set off an anxiety spiral for my emetaphobia. and it went on for about an hour or so when i started feeling better and being more rational with myself. then all of a sudden, i’m hit with a second wave because my stomach started hurting again that i’m still going through. i’ve been having second waves of anxiety recently when i get anxiety attacks and they’re probably worse than the initial hit because i start to think “oh wait, maybe i am sick.” and i’m still not out of it and i’m currently terrified. i know the anxiety is making my stomach worse, but i cannot calm myself down when it hits. so i have an ice pack on my neck, heating pad on my stomach, turned my lights off, turned my fan on and have my tv on for background. i’m trying my best not to take a zofran but it’s getting hard

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