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@vaIentine You can tell me haw i deal with thit

@Anonymous what do you mean?

@vaIentine I mean you have experience

@vaIentine I mean you have experience

@vaIentine Tell me about your storie

@Anonymous i’m not sure if i’ve had OCD my entire life, but it began last year of 2023 around june/july time if i recall correctly. the trigger? going over past events and confessing them all to my partner to get reassurance. it first began with a genuine apology for something i had done; but quickly spiraled into confessing every tiny thing for my partner’s reassurance- which put my partner in a lot of pain. (going to stay vague on this part) ever since then i’ve experienced several themes; my first big one being real events as I’ve said up above with confessing them, as well as what I think is ROCD, and a few other themes. my OCD this year compared to last year has only gotten worse. i am the worst i’ve ever been; i’ve been detaching myself a lot lately which is a really interesting feeling to experience lately, my focus has been morality. i’ve done some ridiculous things to prove i have good morality, just to soothe myself. i know i need to stop, but it’s very very hard to give it up. one thing that has been attacking my morals is jealousy. i won’t go into too much detail, but i have been so incredibly jealous lately, and it has been eating me up, seriously. i hate this feeling, and to be honest- i have no idea why i get so jealous. absolutely no idea. i have no reason to feel this way. it’s made me think some bizarre but genuine things. i.e, maybe i am not made to love/be loved. i have so much trauma and childhood issues that have naturally bled into several aspects of my life, and i’ve lately wondered how some people aren’t tired of me; and wonder if they’re beginning to get tired of me. i’ve considered pushing myself away from everyone before frankly because i don’t feel like i am a lovable person nor am i meant to love somebody else. i just have too much baggage. this topped with OCD; of course OCD has became bestfriends with this issue. i’m stuck, i feel nothing; i feel numb, yet i also a lot of pain in my throat and chest. is this anxiety? i think it may be. i don’t know. as far as dealing with it, i haven’t gotten a good set of coping skills yet, but i will be working with a professional shortly to target it

@vaIentine What is your theme of ocd

@Anonymous And now your oky

@Anonymous I’m still going through it sadly. I think it may also be hormonal for me though.

@Anonymous Tell me

@Anonymous About your storie