Daily Reflection

1) What obsessive themes am I experiencing? I am afraid that my personal relationships are not as stable as I believe they are. I fear that others are reluctant to tell me the truth about their feelings, and they secretly dislike me and want to leave. 2) What compulsions do I perform as a result? I often ask for reassurance up to 3 or 4 times. If the reassurance doesn't provide relief, then I use a sudoku puzzle, which translates to magical thinking, as a way to check for bad omens. I can complete a sudoku puzzle in less than 2mins and 30seconds on average. I will pray that if X person is mad at me/plans to leave me, then I ask that I complete the puzzle in less than 2mins 30seconds. I perform this ritual for 30 minutes on average. 3) How long do I allow myself to sit with the uncomfortable feelings/thoughts without reacting to them? I try to sit with uncomfortable feelings and thoughts for 5 to 10 minutes before I react compulsively. 4) How much distress does this cause? Between 1 and 10 (1 being lowest, 10 being highest), I would say 3 or 4. 5) What can I do after sitting with the uncomfortable thoughts for a certain period of time, to avoid the compulsive response? I could eat a delicious and semi-healthy snack. I could drink water or make camomile tea. I could take a shower and brush my teeth. I could write a daily goals list with 3 attainable goals. I could step outside and take 3+ deep, slow breaths. I could do other small acts of self care, such as make my bed. 6) Three attainable goals: - Take a shower and brush my teeth - Call 3 friends - Attend a support group THE REASON I AM POSTING THIS IS TO SHARE WITH OTHER PEOPLE MY EXPERIENCE IN HANDLING OCD SYMPTOMS. I WELCOME EVERYONE TO SHARE THEIR EXPERIENCES AS WELL IN THE COMMENTS! HAVE A GOOD DAY!

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Presently, i cannot take my mind off a person. Firstly i would have intrusive thoughts about this person safety, started to have a cognitive distortion thinking that it was somehow "predictive" and that i had to check on him. We have our divergencies in life style that lead us to be completly uncompetible. He has in his possession private pics of a time i disassociated and i spent months seeking reasurence he would not use it. Due to very litle response i got agressive, threaten to involve police if i ever would find something online and requested him to block him, cos everytime i did i would also end unblocking. Ive been thinking about him for over than 6 hours a day and im sick of it. Compulsions : reasurence, distractions, mental compulsions

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

I dont do external compulsions. Im either having intrusive thoughts or ruminating about the intrusive thoughts. Ive tried to process what happened the most logical way possible, knowing that i have ocd and hyperresponsabilization as well as a tendency to castrophize things. I do my best as not to engage in rumination, but its always here.

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Yeah. Rumination is definitely a pain the ass. It's like a hamster running on a self-propelled wheel that keeps spinning long after the hamster dies. I don't know if that metaphor even makes sense to anyone else, but it does to me. 🐢 When's the last time you've eaten or drank water?

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous At this time im having multiple hamsters going on the wheel in oposite directions lol. I am able to continue fuctioning in life . Im highty trained to multitask and think about 2 things at the same time , as in normal day versus ocd madness

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

( i have pure o ocd)

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Are you able to sit with those feelings without responding?

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