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Mike✌️

Date posted: 2y

I really relate to this. Decided to have a lazy day today and I’ve been a sitting duck for my harm ocd to flare up. Totally get the projections of starring in a crime documentary and questioning if I’m just a cold, callous person. I think if we’re on this app we’re all just trying to feel back in line with our values. We’re good people. Grateful I can get on here and read these posts.

Janester

Date posted: 2y

@Mike✌️ You’re very correct. I feel this way the last couple days and I have had such physical pains from these thoughts even though my brains like “well what if eventually you want to do tj and that’s why your in such distress because you know your gonna do it” and I keep screaming in my head and freaking out. I’m in here reading things that people feel the exact same way. If anyone has any experience with anxiety medication helping calm there ocd plz let me know I’m thinking about getting on something for the anxiety and depression my harm OCd is causing me

TexasOCD41

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

This is classic Harm OCD. The people on crime documentary are on their because they wanted to do those crimes, they enjoyed hurting other people. The very fact that you are experiencing so much distress is proof its OCD. its an ego-distonic thought ( your thoughts don't line up with your core values). You wont snap. You need to just allow yourself to have the thoughts and try to focus on your daily tasks. Dont google, don't ask for reassurance, don't annalize your thoughts or yourself. Thoughts are just brain static, they mean nothing unless you WANT them to and these thoughts don't serve you so just let them be, don't try to push them away just leave them alone and in time they will stop bothering you. Do you have a therapist?

TexasOCD41

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@carol.xxx - The feeling is probably anxiety. OCD produces physical feelings that feed into why its so distressing. since you don't have access to a therapist, I would then change my advice slightly and recommend you look up NOCDs material on Harm OCD and become educated. Its way less scary when you see you are not alone and what you are experiencing is just a misfiring in your brain. Youtube videos on Harm OCD too will help. Then look into how to do some sel guided ERP ( exposure Response Prevention). And look into some way to find a therapist at some point that will help you.

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