Please let me know if I'm not a bad person.

Aw tysm. My friend said the same thing about if I was homophobic I wouldn't care so much. And I know it's silly and most people aren't assuming those things but I worry alot about silly stuff. I once was worried people would think I was racist if I accidently said a term from my african history textbook without knowing if it was outdated. My friend told me the exact same thing, but changed the words "people aren't going around assuming others are racist and racist people don't worry about being racist". Things like this happen alot, since it's summer and I have more free time my mind tends to get worse

@DrinkWaterPlease It is not silly at all! Every single thought you are experiencing is very valid. They honestly hit a little close to home. I know how difficult this feeling is. And do not get me started on Summer! It leaves me and my brain with way too much to think about. But then again, I like to think that OCD is what makes us so empathetic and gentle. I believe the world needs a little more of that positivity. I have such a huge appreciation for you!

@MrBobaBear That's what I say about my empathy!!!

@DrinkWaterPlease Also thanks for helping me not feel like a bad person

@DrinkWaterPlease Of course! I urge you to reach out if you ever need anything! I would love to help.

@MrBobaBear Same to you

@MrBobaBear It's completely okay if not but something related to this post came up and I was wondering if I could have your advice! Please do not feel obligated to apply tho!

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@DrinkWaterPlease No, by all means! I would love to hear what you have going on:)

@MrBobaBear Well it goes back to the fear of people assuming I'm gay. I still feel guilty like I'm being homophobic. But my friend says I am not and that people aren't just assuming these things anyways. Any friends I know know I get these worries I'm worried just pretend they know it's ocd and assume I'm gay anyways and think the ocd part is a lie. I'm aware that's a stretch and I only really talk deeply about ocd with people ik would listen and understand. But I feel guilty and anxious so I keep isolating myself in the house and avoiding people cause in my OCDs opinion this somehow fixes everything when in reality I feel like if anything it's making it worse because I have nothing to do

@DrinkWaterPlease I feel like I can't win. I'm ether worrying people assume I'm gay and then feeling homophobic or feel sad because I do compulsions and give into ocd nonsense.

@DrinkWaterPlease Hi there! I am so sorry for the wait, I have been working. It seems like you realize that these thoughts you are experiencing are irrational. That is the first step! I am sure your friends aren't assuming you are in denial since you talk about it so much as you suggested, and ask yourself what it would even mean if they did. They still remain your friends and care for you greatly, and will probably hang around long enough until you get into a relationship with a boy, which would be indisputable proof of your sexuality. That being said, I doubt they have even arrived to that false conclusion. Also I can relate very much to the isolation, and I am sorry you are feeling this down:( My heart breaks for you. You must push yourself to stay social and get out, otherwise isolation can exacerbate these thoughts and emotions. Also allow me to remind you that homophobes typically have zero regard for people who identify as LGBTQ+. You simply wanting to identify as a straight female is in no way shape or form harmful to LGBTQ+. Sexual orientation is biological, as is with queer people. Now, I want to you know that I am unable to provide you with unlimited reassurance. These are temporary fixed to an ongoing theme in which your mind will find more loopholes for. Thats what makes OCD so tough:( But you are on the right track. You seem very perceptive in where the truth lies within your thinking. I am so proud of you. Keep in mind, this entire message is being written by someone who is LGBTQ+. You do not offend me. You inspire me! And reassure me that there are wonderful souls out there in the world:)