shrimpeasy
- Date posted
- 1y
harm ocd
im crying hard right now im so scared. i haven’t cried like this or really at all since the thoughts started happening… im so scared im gonna act on them. i just want it all to stop..
CharlotteHutchesonCharlotteHut...
- Date posted
- 1y
you won’t, you trust yourself, remember the last time you had this thought, remember when you thought you were going to do it but then you didn’t, this is that same instance, if you got rid of that feeling once, you will again
MrBobaBearMrBobaBear
- Date posted
- 1y
Hi there. I have dealt with this theme myself a while ago. I know how debilitating and crushing it can be. First of all, I want you to know that you have full control. When I was grappling with this theme, I felt like these compulsions would lead me to lashing out and acting on them. Spoiler: they do not. OCD has a funny way of tricking your brain into thinking you might actually reap a little pleasure from doing them, otherwise you wouldn't be thinking about it so much. This also is not true. You have this entirely under control. I wish I coild take this pain and uncertainty away from you. No one deserves to feel this way. You have got this! MrBobaBear signing off.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y
I am dealing with the same thing right now feel like I want to cry its torturous and I just want to live and enjoy my life I understand what you are dealing with
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