Just a rant?

I hate how my mind works. It’s more annoying than anything. I can’t look at the number six without feeling disgusting. I can’t hear the number without panic arising in my body. I can’t say it. I can’t do anything with it. I hate how there’s good numbers and bad ones. It’s annoying. Why does my brain make me think I’m infected when I come across it??? Why can’t I think of the number without trying to “protect” myself and say it’s just “two groups of three” Every time I see the number I want to puke and get it off. Get what off exactly?? Idk. The infected feeling. The bad feeling. But it’s a number. A number. It’s not even physical. It’s a way of keeping track of an amount. But no matter what I say logically. It doesn’t matter. The feeling doesn’t stop. The thinking doesn’t disappear. It ruins stuff for me. I hate it

Amara

Date posted: 1y

Hi Cede. It's all understandable, but you know the only way for OCD is to practice enough ERP. You can overcome that. Did you remember my tips last time, try to practice. I hope you get well soon.I know you can.

CD…

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous - I do remember what you said, I try hard to think positive about the number. It’s so hard to, which sounds so stupid to me considering it’s a number

Amara

Date posted: 1y

@CD… OCD certainly sounds absurd and illogical, and remember, it always tells lies. When you are able to overcome your compulsions one by one, you will notice that they seem like false beliefs that our minds, through false programming, believed. I send tips again. I hope you get better soon. Remember, the key is to practice enough and believe in yourself. Mindfulness techniques, such as deep breathing, meditation, or grounding exercises, can help you stay present and reduce anxiety when you are triggered by certain numbers When you experience feelings of dirtiness or disgust associated with certain numbers , try to challenge those thoughts. Remind yourself that these are just associations in your mind, and they do not define you as a person. Consider gradual exposure to the numbers that trigger negative feelings. Start with small exposures and gradually increase your exposure over time to build tolerance and reduce the intensity of your reactions. Try to create positive associations with the numbers that trigger negative feelings. This can be done through visualization, affirmations, or engaging in activities you enjoy while thinking about these numbers

CD…

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous - Yet again, thank you for the helpful tips and reminders. I’ll keep trying to work at these and hopefully improve

Amara

Date posted: 1y

@CD… Anytime 🙂 We are creatures of habit, and by practicing, we can change these nonsensical rules of OCD, just as you can learn to play the piano by practicing.

PeterM333

Date posted: 23w

I feel like I'm losing my mind I can't trust it

I keep seeing coupled numbers or angel numbers and having dejvu and in my mind when I get constant Deja Vu which in my mind means something bad is about ti happen I have had it 6 times today 3 in the last hour and I honestly feel like I'm going insane whether its Deja Vu of the numbers it causes me to question every action I make. If I see the numbers or get Deja Vu it dictates my day and I can't live this way anymore. Everyone I try and talk to doesn't understand and there is no way I can ever tell anyone about my violent intrusive thoughts the one time I did my mother called the police. Sorry for the run-on sentences and if it doesn't flow right I'm just really struggling right now and have been for a long time and I just want help I'm scared of my own mind. Thank you for whoever answers this post just one person would sadly make my day.

Magical Thinking OCD

Vee4

Date posted: 17w

Rant

I'm really frustrated right now because once again I feel like I can't keep up with my own brain and I just can't keep doing this. I'm so tired of doing this. My head is always going and going and going and I just want to unplug it. It makes me so stressed. It's like I have someone else in my head who won't shut up and is always pointing everything I do out. Like I'm walking on eggshells around myself so I don't trigger these thoughts. But if I walk on egg shells then it just goes on about something else and I feel like I'm going crazy.. I feel so bad because it makes me so snappy. I want to bash my head in because I'm so over it. The only thing I know that helps is anxiety meds, because I had one one time and it actually really helped me (it didn't even do it's job! Because of how bad my anxiety is!! I'm just so desperate at this point for relief) But the last time I brought up going on meds for anxiety with my mom she said I'll get addicted, like my dad, or my grandma, or whoever else in my family because everyone in my family is addicted to SOMETHING. I don't see the issue in trying though. I feel like I'm someone who could really benefit from anxiety meds. I don't talk about my feelings often BECAUSE of anxiety, so it seems like I'm just trying to go on meds for no reason. But it's like..my body hurts. All the time. And my brain never stops. My brain is so messed up. I feel like I could do so much more if I wasn't like this. It's never going away, I've tried and I've tried and I'm still a mess. I just want it to stop. I'm not asking for much. I just want the fear to stop and the intrusive thoughts to stop and the racing thoughts and the feelings of doom and the nervousness and and I actually want to feel okay in my own skin for fucking once. I've tried everything nothing works im losing patience and I'm losing hope. I feel like there's something wrong with me. I feel like my brain is broken and that makes me sad to be honest. I feel like everyone around me can work. Why can't my stupid brain work???? I try so hard. I try so hard all the time. And it still doesn't do what it needs to do. I hate myself so much.

Pezling

Date posted: 17w

Numbers And Words 🥴

Hey so my OCD makes me hate specific numbers and words, like I can’t say some words in case that specific word comes true and something bad happens. I then go and keep saying to myself everything is amazing,everything is amazing and it just tires me out.

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