- Date posted
- 1y
in your opinion, is this harm ocd?
I'm scared that I might be abusing my sister, l'm 22 woman and she's 16 and a half, we fight like other siblings but sometimes we get in physical fights, and lately I started to think what if l am physically abusing her and it's not just regular siblings fights? and I started to get many thoughts and questions like what's normal in siblings physical fights? Do other siblings get in physical fights like us? in this age? Is it even normal to get in physical fights with your siblings? if it's normal, so what's the fine line between a normal siblings behavior and demostic abuse? I started to search about it and I find an essay written by a therapist who was talking about this topic and the fine line between sibling rivalry and siblings abuse but it stressed me even more! he described sibling abuse with "forgotten abuse" and that's just what I was thinking about it! I was asking my self what is the difference between that and physical abuse in romantic or parental relationships? why it's not acceptable at all in those relationship but in siblings no, it's just regular siblings behavior?Why? is it because of the environment we grew up in that have so much tolerance with abuse? we're in an arab county, we used to beat each other and just make up after 5 minutes, we grew up doing this, of course this is a toxic behavior but it doesn't make me suddenly an abuser! or maybe I am! I really don't know anything anymore and l can't shake this idea! and I started to freak out and think that I'm a horrible person and an abuser that needs to be sent up straight to jail and root in it. and no it's not ocd because we don't act on the intrusive thoughts but you just acted on the thoughts and hit her! I'm just a horrible and dangerous person who can't communicate my anger in a healthy way! what the difference between me and our mam and dad when they used to hit me when I was a child? I'm just like them and I turning into them? this is my worst nightmare! I prefer dying over this! so please give me your opinions, do think this just harm ocd playing with me or no, it's not ocd?