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Dose anyone experience this
Like just chilling having a good day then you start searching inside for something wrong something you done in the past or you start making things up just to lead you in failure
Like just chilling having a good day then you start searching inside for something wrong something you done in the past or you start making things up just to lead you in failure
Yes. My mind is in a cycle of thinking negatively even when it doesn't have to. At all. I'm just so used to doing so that I now have to work on defaulting to more positive thinking
@BigGyro09 I know I’m like having a good day chilling then all of the sudden I start thinking if I did anything wrong did I do something wrong and don’t remember it like I’m always looking for chaos in my life why am I not confident like other people
@5416 Have you ever considered that your self esteem may be low? I'm not saying this is the case, but it is for me combined with anxiety. Your mind may be used to anxious thinking since it's a learned behavior.
@BigGyro09 I totally agree I know that I do have low self esteem can you elaborate more on this please
@5416 Well, low self esteem can make it difficult for you to have a good opinion of yourself, leave you anxious, and set yourself to lower standards than other people. This can come from something that may have happened to you when you were a child, such as a bad event, bullying, or criticism for your efforts. You could also try to watch videos to get an understanding of what it is. Low self esteem is really tough to deal with because it interferes with your life on how treat yourself, possibly treat other people, and what you want to do.
@BigGyro09 Wow big gyro this is opening me up to something sometimes some of the answers are right there in our personality makes sense also the way we view ourselves ultimately leads us to how we treat and be treated sometimes i wish i could just reset and build a new character it’s tuff looking at it like this is it change impossible but probably understanding it will help with acceptance and change honestly u opened my eyes to something thank you btw what are you doing to help yourself with this
@5416 I'm glad that I can help. I'm still trying to figure out how to improve on this, but know that it's not too late. You can find ways to improve your self esteem to a healthy standpoint. You can try to tell yourself positive things through affirmations, writing, or saying good things to yourself out loud. These may help.
@BigGyro09 Thank you biggyro I really appreciate that I wish more insight and answers for us both and ways to become more accepting and better balanced thank you friend
Anyone else just have days where they feel more calm and don’t have as many intrusive thoughts? But then later at night time it just comes back so you only had relief even for a little bit 😞😞 I feel like even when I’m not having my OCD send me intrusive thoughts, I always have a feeling in my stomach that something is wrong/off or a sense of doom. I always just feel on edge and anxious as if my mind is always preparing itself for the next horrifying intrusive thought to torment me with ugh 🫠
With real event OCD, I don’t know if any of you feel this way, but do you ever feel that the past event(s) that you ruminate about or constantly obsess about are gonna come up in your future and just absolutely ruin you, that’s how I’ve been feeling for months, it just feels like impending doom, and I hate having to even think that my future would be ruined by what I did as a teenager, and I did some dumb things, that I regret so deeply, I just can’t stop thinking about that.
I did post about this the other day, but I’m just genuinely worried like this happened many years ago and I can’t really remember exactly what I said, but I have a feeling like I said something really mean and I think I lashed out on a person like a stranger cause I don’t know I was probably going through something and I’m afraid that like it was so bad it caused them to hurt themselves and now I keep thinking like what if the police are secretly looking for me because the harm caused, even though I have no evidence of any of this, but even this Happened like a deca ago, it still haunts me like I really hope that the person is OK and I constantly like keep reviewing like their conversation over and over again like in my mind like I genuinely feel like a bad person maybe even a criminal 😃
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