What if my harm intrusive thoughts are actually me just actually planning on hurting someone or something? Like I know deep down I don’t want to but what if I am seriously not okay???? I’m struggling so much and idk what to do
Hi Sadie! Unfortunately, this is what HOCD does:( Your mind is conjuring up these intrusive thoughts, and your OCD is utilizing them against you. OCD will use any thought, action, or sensation in order to solidify your fears. The bottom line is, you have a very common theme, and a very noisy and antagonizing one at that. My heart breaks for you, and I know how tough and debilitating it can be:( HOCD creates this grim trepidation and is a gate way to perpetual perseveration and rumination that leaves you in a state of prolonged mental turmoil. You'll begin to question why you've had these thoughts and what they may reflect, and you'll reach a point of questioning if you are in denial of your true brute nature. None of these thoughts are true. It is your mind's way of gaslighting you. There is no length your OCD won't go to in order to peddle the fear and anxiety. These thoughts will eventually subside, and you will see that they hold no true weight. Many people have been cursed with this theme, and many people have overcome it. As one of those people, I can guarantee you that not only does it get easier, it can go away:) You have got this! Stay strong, and please feel free to reach out whenever!
@MrBobaBear Thankyou very much
@sadieguptill Of course! Please feel free to reach out whenever!
Your thoughts are only thoughts. I suffer from harm OCD also and I know it can be scary .
thoughts aren’t reality.
so i start therapy tomorrow. but bro it’s just getting worse and im so scared. like the thoughts are getting more frequent and i genuinely feel evil and i hate it. i keep thinking what if i do it and im scared im eventually gonna. i’m scared i give off a creepy vibe or im lying to myself or others. please tell me is this ocd? do i need to be actually worried? i’m really freaking out
I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like it’s feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that I’m testing my self in head all the time if that’s what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like I’m been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I don’t have OCD, just that maybe it’s me really!!!! How can I know who I am really 🥹???!!??
I’m scared I keep thinking this over and over that I’m gunna hire a hitman on my brother what if I do like I’m a bad person how can I be normal with him this is probably my worst harm thought and it feels like I truly will do it I’m just “ holding back” :(
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