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Thai Le
Hi all I’m having HIV phibia. Can’t get it out of my mind. I come here to find people to help me overcome it and take my life back to normal state…
Hi all I’m having HIV phibia. Can’t get it out of my mind. I come here to find people to help me overcome it and take my life back to normal state…
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@Hooper123 Thank you Hooper. Yes you are right. I read a lot and know alot about HIV but can’t get rid of my mind and test 1 month/1 time. I know how HIV transmitted but still can’t get it out…I didn’t fear about me, If really get infected I’m OK with that but I fear consequences follow up with my family… I know I have OCD and trying to find a therapy near me….
@Hooper123 I know HIV won’t transmit via causual contact but I still fear that my kids will get infected if touch something I’ve just touched…crazy thinking…
@Hooper123 What your problem? We can communicate and help each other.
@Th@nhnienvn Drop me a message. I really need somebody I can talk to and share…
@Hooper123 Yes you are right…I tried to get rid of it myself but can’t actually
@Hooper123 Yes, I’m finding the therapy in my location as the fee here seem to high and English is not my native language so I may not understand well what therapy told me…
@Hooper123 If you are OK let make friends and help each other. You are first person I met and discuss here
Well who deleted all of my comments?
This fear keeps coming back and it’s to the point I cry and what to panic. I no longer talk to the man simply because I wanted to move on and find something meaningful to have with someone (relationship wise). I still keep fearing I need to go get my blood checked. Thoughts like “what if I have it and don’t know it and give to someone?” “What if that urine test I took months ago didn’t work” I got tested for stds but it came back negative. They took a urine test but google says you have to have your blood drawn!! I’m so scared. My mind tells me “you have HIV” and then a sense of peace comes and scares me even more!!!
In September I had unprotected oral sex. I haven’t had sex in five years because even before that I was so ashamed and worried about sex. I finally did it and then a few weeks later while I was at work I started to be very itchy all in my underwear area like up to my butt. I didnt see any blisters or anything but when I googled it, herpes came up. Eventually I thought maybe it was the new underwear I bought and it went away after I stopped wearing them. However it’s returned twice, mostly when I’m really worried about herpes. I know this makes little sense because I don’t thinking about it would cause an outbreak but, either way I’m really nervous to go get tested because I heard there’s a high false positive rate and if I get a positive there’s a huge chance I will just become a recluse and never speak to anyone again. I already have so much trauma with sex, vaginismus, etc. I can’t imagine telling anyone I have herpes and then they 1) don’t want to be with me 2) now know this and could tell anyone they want Even if I don’t have it I was reading it could be asymptomatic and 80% of people who have it don’t even know, so now I’m worried I will get it no matter what sex I have. I can barely handle staying alive with just OCD but now with social stigma with herpes I will feel like I can not even live a normal life. I am already freaking out about it and don’t know what to do. I am worried to go get tested and it saying I have it, and then I’m worried to not and potentially spread it, I’m not even having sex with anyone right now so it’s not like I would. But I’m worried I will forget to wash my hands and touch something and someone else will touch it and then get it. I’m just having a really bad time.
This is killing me slowly day by day, im a straight female 20 years old, i started getting hocd after a break up with an ex and coming off intense use of 🍁🍃 for a few years on and off, i think it has messed up my brain so bad… my hocd is weird because ive been with men my whole life always wanted to be with men.. i also used to always question every relationship “do i love him? Does he love me? Am I with the right person?” Anyways after my hocd triggered my tocd due to researching hocd and finding they can often be linked, I started getting tocd and it’s worse then ever because it’s not who I want to be and I’m going back to situations where my abusive ex partner called me a “man” during a fight. I’ve always been a tomboy but never had same sex attraction. Help. This is killing me. I haven’t been able to study or leave the house most days, and work! I’ve lost motivation for everything and I’m in a dark hole. I need some success stories please
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