- Date posted
- 1y
Fear of being sended to a mental hospital.
I struggle with suicidal intrusive thoughts (not suicidal ocd) and im on my journey, but shame is really hard to deal with, with ocd i avoided this shame cause i knew people with ocd dont actually want the thoughts, but now shame comes and says "because its not ocd, you are in danger of hurting yourself or people around you." And i feel so bad cause i love people around me and i would be so depressed if i would do something to them. I tried to not feed this but then the fear of getting sended to a mental hospital came up. Cause people go there who might be dangerous to others. I dont want to go there but i also feel shame that i dont want to go there and im dangerous to others... so its a never ending loop. One thing i know is that you have to face fear. But facing my fear would be going to a mental hospital and face shame. Go and stay there to face this fear... Should we expose ourself to all our fear? I dont know if i should listen to my feelings cause if i dont go, i feel like im a bad person, im avoiding to deal with my problem. But i know many could go through this without going to a mental hospital