pregnancy ocd has got HANDS

my whole life ive been like. mildly concerned about becoming pregnant. but in the past several months since meeting my current boyfriend it has gotten so. bad. realistically i understand that the chances are unlikely if not impossible, yet the thought of being pregnant DESTROYS ME time and time again. i get sent into such awful spirals about it. i get stuck in bed, i waste so much money atp on tests and levonorgestrel for literally no reason, i plan ways to abort any potential pregnancy myseld in case i cant access a medical abortion, up to and including hurting or killing myself, my eating disorder pays a nice visit and i convince myself that i cant eat or ill feed a fetus, i spend hours googling the smallest symptoms or "researching" the topic (ignoring anything that refutes my idea of being pregnant of course), im in an out of the bathroom checking to see if my period started, excessive exercise to get it to start. i cant do ANY tasks without these thoughts and compulsions. i always thought i could handle how i am but more and more im realizing its so hard. i talk to my boyfriend about it but he doesnt fully understand or know what to do. i opened up to 2 friends about it and one of them found it too tmi and got upset and now wont speak to me which makes me even more afraid to seek help. i thought she would get it but i feel so awful and stupid now. im not sure why im writing all of this. i guess i just need someone to understand. to reassure? but i know you arent really supposed to do that with people with ocd. so im not sure what i need. just to talk and feel heard i guess. i wish there were a way out of this.

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Username: kfaithkfaith

Date posted: 19w ago

Hi! I haven’t had the same theme of thoughts as you, but I empathize with your situation. Something that might be helpful for you is to look up “ocd NERS” and read about it. NERS stands for Non Engagement Responses, and they are techniques you can use to manage ocd. I just learned about them today, and found them to be helpful. Hope this helps you too!

Username: vaIentinevaIentine

Date posted: 19w ago

@kfaith i had no idea about this; i know this is directed to OP (original poster (i.e the user of this post) for those who don’t know this abbreviation) but this will help me a TON, so thank you!

Username: vaIentinevaIentine

Date posted: 19w ago

(so sorry for so many notifs! decided to repost as one full comment) i understand that your friend’s reaction may of pushed you away from the idea of opening up to a professional- but your friend is not a professional. chances are your friend doesn’t know at all how ocd works or manifests itself … so of course, they may not have the best reaction. they know nothing of ocd, so to them its unknown and may be what they consider tmi. a professional however spent YEARS going to school, and has probably heard every ocd story you can think of out there. they are there to help; they are not here to judge. i highly, highly suggest speaking to a professional about this. i promise they will have open arms; and if you meet one that you don’t quite mesh with, it is OKAY to find a new professional to work with. it does not mean every professional will be someone you don’t mesh with; please give it a chance. you do not have to live like this. there IS a way out of this. i understand it is hard; and for awhile i’d become just overcome by my compulsions and such … but i realised that i am the only one who can get myself out of this, the same goes for you. you can do this, you just need to push yourself. take my message and possible bluntness as your first push, and start working to better yourself. you can do it. i believe in you. you can do it. :) as far as your boyfriend; encourage him to read about ocd. it helped my boyfriend better understand my thought process and it has made things a breeze. not ocd itself of course, but in terms of him understanding the way that i think which at first was hard to understand for him.

Username: My OCDMy OCD

Date posted: 16w ago

Im curious, Have you considered birth control pills or contraceptives... also condoms. These will ease your thoughts and feelings. Preventing is the first step to resolving anxiety.

Username: Xxmaddie_shawxx

Date posted: 6y ago

Guys I neeed someone to talk to like now it's been about 8 days since I lost my virginity but I'm so fucking paranoid about being pregnant and I don't feel pregnant but I just am so convinced and I don't know it's OCD or if I am but I don't think i can deal with this I don't wanna have an abortion and if I do I'm not gonna be able to tell my parents I'll have to do it alone and my life's a mess

Username: StefH

Date posted: 4y ago

I have been struggling with OCD for as long as I can remember and I have lost count of how many therapists I have been to. But the main one that has really stuck with me is contamination OCD. but it branches off like if there is a red smudge on paper or somewhere I’ll automatically think it’s blood and have immediate anxiety. But the OCD fear that I have allowed to control my life is the fear of getting pregnant from someone not washing their hands after going to the bathroom or if they did (who knows what) and didn’t wash their hands or shower, or even if they touch their phone (since nowadays we all have ours connected to us at all times)or something before washing their hands and then the sperm could of transferred onto that or anything and then they touch something that I then touch and then if I got pregnant (or even the thought of those “germs/sperm” being on my body at all) my boyfriend would breakup with me and we have been together for over 5 years and I love him with my whole heart so my fear is loosing him. Now I know it’s pretty much impossible to get pregnant like that but my OCD brain is saying well what if it happens to you and your the first person ever. So I literally don’t touch anything after anyone or at least directly without washing my hands right after. I was my hands probably at least 50 times a day and use Lysol wipes on EVERYTHING! I have sanitized my phone 3 times already today. I am in therapy but I feel like talking to others who also suffer and can relate helps too I know this is a strange OCD fear, I guess I’m wondering if anyone has ever had this fear as well?

Username: hereintheUK

Date posted: 2y ago

Parents and mums to be…….

Hi everyone I’m new here. I’ve been to hell and back in the last 5 months with my OCD which has affected me with various themes in various ways for since childhood but I’ve only this year discovered I have OCD. I have been suicidal 3 times and very close to ending it all. I have a question for all the parents out there/mums to be suffering with OCD…… I already have a 9 yr old boy and 8 yr old girl and have just found out I’m pregnant again…… I really want to be happy about it but my OCD is determined to make me terrified of having another baby and I am living in fear and dread of changing nappies etc as I know it will start affecting me with POCD type thoughts. I didn’t have OCD anything like as bad as it has been this year when I had my two eldest so never had any issues when they were babies. But I don’t even know how to feel except I am terrified now and very seriously considering abortion just to not go through what the OCD may do to me mentally! Though it would devastate my partner. I have had minimal therapy so far since August but no ERP therapy, I’ve lost faith in therapists as I’m yet to meet one that actually knows what OCD is like for those of us living with it. Is anyone else currently facing this situation with being pregnant or been through/currently going through it? How are you coping? Please don’t give too many details as I am scared of being triggered

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