uwotm8
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- 6y
marty12marty12
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- 6y
You’ve ticked that box now, just visualise that ticked box every time you go to think about it xxxxxxxx
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
Thankyou it’s been hell xxx
marty12marty12
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- 6y
✅ please remember the box has been ticked babe, you can relax, do something you love xxxxx
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
Thankyou so much I’ll remember that for future xxx
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
About my eye chalazion / conjunctivitis too - remember this!!! Okay she said defo defo not an std causing it i would STILL have entire red swollen eyes and optrex antibacterial ointment wouldn’t cure it, my old antibiotics for skin wouldn’t mask it and there’s no possible way to transfer from eye to genitals because it just doesn’t work that way. If I had swabs at the clinic in my nether regions and they’re negative then so is my eye - they very rarely swab eyes and you’d be able to tell just by looking at me She told me to enjoy my holiday and relax
marty12marty12
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- 6y
It’s already ticked xxxx
scolytus-scolytusscolytus-sco...
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Hey. Just wanted to let you know this is something I really struggle with as well, so I understand what you’re going theough. It’s literally just about STI’s too, no other health stuff really concerns me. I think the way they teach you about STI’s in school, in the really fear mongering way is awful, it’s no wonder people can really get themselves into mental rabbit holes about STI’s. It took me years to realize that the vast majority of them can be cured with antibiotics. I’ve been tested so many times, I’ve even bought one of those online STI kits which cost hundreds of euros because they tested for one or two additional infections. It was a waste of time though because the doubts about how trustworthy that test kit was of course didn’t take long to creep in. To be honest a lot of my worry about STI’s is I feel convinced I have something wrong with me and I’m passing on to people who I really care about. Anyway I know there’s no point in saying to you “you did your tests, they came back fine, don’t worry” because it’s not that simple with an obsession like this. All I can suggest is when the thoughts come creeping in after the initial feeling of relief when results come back negative, identify them immediately as your OCD thoughts and don’t let them rule you. Your thoughts aren’t real. Don’t try and fight the thoughts, just try and change your response. Don’t google symptoms! Every website seems to say something different, it doesn’t help at all and just makes you more muddled up.. Sorry for huuuuge comment, writing all that out is kind of intended to be helpful for me too, it’s good to give others the same advice you should be taking yourself haha Take care x
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
I just can’t seem to function anymore. My job is affected because I call sexual health helplines multiple times daily and google at work and get regularly told off for it. My sexual side in my relationship has been dampened because I’m scared of passing them to him and I love him so much I’m terrified of losing him I have been tested multiple times and I always find an issue with it. Now I’m worried “what if the woman when I called the clinic to confirm I DEFINITELY had rectal swabs was lying? Or just told me to shut me up? And if I had then what if they’re not accurate? I could put my partner at risk and he will think I cheated then leave me”
scolytus-scolytusscolytus-sco...
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- 6y
@?uwotm8? Sounds like you’re going through a particularly rough time, and just going in circles.. I’m not sure if you’re in therapy or anything already but if not then definitely reach out for help ❤️ This problem clearly runs so deep, and coming to terms with the fact that no matter how many tests you do, you won’t be satisfied can be really difficult.. Getting tested over and over is the easy bit, deciding to address the root of the problem and do some soul searching is what’s difficult - but there is so much help out there, and you’re not alone (I completely understand how you’re feeling because I go through it all too) You need to be gentle with yourself and stop torturing yourself like this.. Can’t live life being your own worst enemy. Remember it doesn’t matter how many tests you do, it will always ultimately be the same result in you being dissatisfied still. Break the cycle of getting tested ❤️ good luck x
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
I’ve checked my old messages to friends and I’ve always had every swab going - all negative
marty12marty12
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- 6y
? good job xx
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
Transmission is impossible through urine and objects - called helpline again she said get help with anxiety Also confirmed rectal swabs
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
Tests: 7th August 2019 - negative oral vaginal rectal 29th August 2019 - negative Vaginal Rectal
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 6y
Called nurse and confirmed the same info twice today she said I defo had all those tests
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