Ignore this again. yet another record for my own sanity because my brain is a cruel bully and keeps making me doubt I’m safe, and my partner will leave me I’ve never had an std I’ve always tested negative I’ve been tested multiple times for oral vaginal and anal STDs which are all NEGATIVE can’t catch STDs from toilets / urine / objects - only penetrative sex Can’t harbour an std inside a tongue piercing- if it’s negative, it’s negative I am allowed to rule out STDs when I have worrying symptoms (uti, light spotting before period, sore throat etc) because I’ve been tested negative for STDs, and haven’t been with anyone else meaning it’s unnecessary to test for them again as I already have my answer Can’t pass on what I don’t have Nurses have said it’s an anxiety issue not a sexual one Stress can also cause symptoms anywhere in the body and I’ve been super super stressed for nearly 6 months now

I've recently decided to get tested for HSV because I have kissed someone with HSV-1. I tested negative several months ago, but I want to be sure. Today I started feeling a tingling sensation and when I pressed my lips together I felt a bump there. So ever since, I've been trying to confirm if there is or is not a bump, where it is, if it's an early HSV breakout or an early pimple. The web searches say that tingle sensations usually means cold sore, but I know that as of a few months ago I tested negative and I have in fact had this tingle happen for zits along my lip line. So I'm super confused and dying to have an answer. I'm planning on heading in to a clinic for a test first thing tomorrow morning but if I can get any advice or knowledge I would so appreciate it, even if that advice and knowledge is helping me break from my compulsion to fidget with my lip or search up information.

so about a week ago around june 12 or 13 coming back from the beach i was having vulva pain on one of the lips then eventually i went to grandmas house and everytime i bent down or moved around i was having some sharp pain “down there” eventually i was scared and then it started to kinda hurt to pee… and i was like ok this is kinda worrying me eventually i forgot about it for two days it didn’t hurt but then i come back and start to have it again. so then i was like okay i’m just gonna schedule a doctors appointment. i schedule my doctors appointment got tested and i was negative for UTI but i was having bad lower back psi so they sent off a cultural test and told me a few days after that i have bacterial vaginosis so i was like ok i’m guessing to get antibiotics for it… i get the antibiotics yesterday theyre capsules i can’t swallow them but i cut them and put it in apple sauce where it was so gross the smell was awful and the taste was awful… atp i got a liquid i haven’t took it yet.. but my stomach has been hurting and had numbness and weird tingling feeling down there… where it’s scaring me and now my stomach hurts almost like cramps but it makes me so nervous… i keep thinking i have ovarian cancer or some type of cancer or a cyst or kidney stones… even tho they told me i have bacterial vaginosis somehow i can’t believe them… but i soon start my period on the 30th and my OCD gets so bad 2 weeks before my period and symptoms start a week before my period… idk i’ve never had this OCD go out for so long but like my urine looks fine it’s just when i pee now it’s almost feels weird idk my stomach is hurting rn when i lay down and i’ve been freaking out ugh. and this morning i had sorenness down there… i also had some inner thigh pain… i can’t stop googling i keep thinking it’s something worse than i have from what the doctor told me

tw; !! sex, lgbtq, cold sores, anxiety !! okay so i haven’t been on NOCD since 2023. i need help so bad. i know i need to go to therapy, but i honestly just don’t have the money for it unfortunately. i was hoping to get some help. i’ve been with my girlfriend for three years, and we have a beautiful relationship. and an even more beautiful, healthy sex life; up until a year ago that is. she’s known i get cold sores every now and then since i met her. and i let her know that because it was fair and right. she never minded, and i never really..paid attention to them? i guess. well i got like 4-5 outbreaks in the last 5 years before april of 2023 and haven’t had one since. well i know that lip tingling or burning can be a sign of a cold sore appearing, yet one day in september last year, i ignored it (thinking it wasn’t that serious) and gave my girlfriend oral sex. afterwards, i thought i saw something on my lip and freaked the fuck out. like i genuinely didn’t sleep for days and cried so hard for hours on end. she was clearly upset with me for not mentioning the tingling to her and thought i could’ve possibly maybe transferred it to her. well nothing ever popped up on my lip, but since that day i haven’t been able to give her oral sex (we’re two women so giving head is a main intimate thing for us both) and it’s hard to kiss her because every time i think about the thought of a cold sore, my lip tingles. and i looked it up, and it says “if your lip tingles, a cold sore will pop up 48 hours later at least”. so when i feel the “tingle” i wait 2 days to kiss/be intimate with her. and nothing comes of it because i think the “tingle” is usually my anxiety. but i can’t decipher at the moment. so this cycle of “tingle > no sex/kisses for two days > no cold sore > “tingle” >” and so on so forth has been going on for a year and i don’t know what the fuck to do. my life is so fucking draining right now because we used to have such a deep connection sexually and now i’m letting her down and it’s so fucking hard because i don’t want to lose her. but i’m trying so hard i just don’t know what to do i’m breathing so hard just writing this. just someone please point me in the right direction.