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I was like that before all of this ? looking back at my life before all of this is just so sad because one minute you happy the next you Ouchea with HoCd and I went to the see a psychologist today he doesn’t understand or even know what HOCD is he asked to go do research imagine how frustrating and demoralizing it is I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy and I didn’t even know that my mind could think of memories of when I was 5/6 till I had this HoCd wow
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Sorry English is not my home language
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I used to be like that.
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i noticed you said you “used to” be like that. so how’d you get over it?
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oh my gosh. this is literally how i feel. since my hocd, i’ve thought “omg what if i kiss a girl and like it and then turn bisexual” and that scares me so much. and now seeing that it’s actually happened to someone, it’s triggered my hocd and i don’t know what to do. i’m not attracted to women in that way. i don’t want a relationship with them. when i get intrusive thoughts or images of me with a “girlfriend” it just seems like friends to me. but still this freaks me out. a lot. because it’s something that can very well happen and that scares me because i don’t want it to happen
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Exactly the scary part is that the opportunity is there. For example, don't want to trigger anyone but the opportunity is there for us to harm someone we just choose not too. So that is why I find it scary: opportunity.
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I went out last night with a couple of girlfriends. One of them is contemplating divorcing her husband bc of a drinking problem (she is straight) and made a joke about running off and joining the “lesbian island”. She then continues to say “making out with a girl is one thing” but that she could never actually BE with a woman sexually, etc. Well… this has triggered my SO OCD significantly because I’m thinking, well why does she think it’s okay to just kiss/make-out if she doesn’t identity as bisexual? I mean she is beautiful and I’ve heard all my straight friends say the same thing. So I start to worry by thinking, well I find her very attractive - does that mean I want to make out with her and see what she’s talking about? Just to note, I also identify as straight and am married. So this is just so damn frustrating and confusing. Especially bc society shows women kissing all the time on reality tv shows etc (who present themselves as straight). So now I’m having intrusive thoughts and making myself think sexual things to “check” if I’m still straight. Ughh..any advice would be greatly appreciated. And if someone could please explain why a straight woman would make such a comment - that would be very helpful.
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straight girl suffering from hocd, okay so when i was younger i looked at like a girl corn star insta for like 2 weeks and like did get aroused by it, didn’t think much of it still fancied boys, girls were like ew no to me, but its triggering my hocd so badly, like is it normal that i could look at a sexy pic of a girl n get aroused by it, but like a shirtless pic of a boy i wouldn’t, however i have insane attraction to men irl, i love my boyfriend, i love the idea of being with a man and hate the idea of being with a woman, this really freaking me out!
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So my whole life I’ve been heterosexual. I have got hocd so I worry I’m a lesbian when I have no reason to worry about it because im straight ( not that my ocd likes to think that tho lol! ). But there’s this thought I have, How do I know I’m 100% straight if I haven’t tried sleeping with a girl? Bear in mind I’ve NEVER WANTED TO and DONT want too. Hence why it is an INTRUSIVE thought. But the thought is so uncomfortable- I can’t seem to shift it. But i do see that THIS IS OCD & wanting to know for certain. Thats the definition of OCD. I do know that but it’s tough with the stupid doubts!!! Do you guys just live with the unknown / uncertainty. I’m so happy and love my boyfriend and only want to be with him etc. Let me say again, I DONT want to sleep with a girl nor have I ever fantasized about it. But why does ocd want 100% certainty.. I just wanna not have that weird niggling thought.
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